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[thechezure]

So days 1-8 of my year of drawing challenge... So part one currently. XD

[thechezure]

And so the show goes on.

I’m kinda made myself proud the past couple days. I did some awesome fanart stuff and the streamers they were for super appreciated it. One of them even gave my fanart a place in their stream on their not gaming screen. =3

I’m very proud of my work, very much motivated more by my perseverance and pay off, and the improvement my art has gone through. Though I still need to work on shading, that’s another thing for another day. I’ll work on it eventually.

[thechezure]

The Consequences of Having a Sleepless Chaotic Mind...

As much good as a mind like mine can be, the creativity, the constant ability to come up with insane, chaotic, awesome ideas ( Long as I have energy and soda ) , the always ever helpful ability to understand what most children and people mean when they’re trying to explain things ( Although sometimes that ability fails too... ) ... 

But with all the good my mind has... Due to several things I have... OCD... Bipolar... Asperger’s... The list goes on... There’s a whole lot of consequences to these abilities... Constant depression, although the level of which is... Varying... Having to take prescribed medication in order to even SLEEP... Partial inability to mature properly dooming me to always be childish in one way or another... I mean... I have a very friendly and caring disposition, but... It’s so hard sometimes to keep smiling... Especially when you’ve been through the mental ( and mental facility ) and emotional ringer like I have... You feel so... Hopeless... Worthless sometimes even... You find things that you used to love spending mass amounts of time doing... Not as interesting to you... You leave it alone for awhile... Come back to it to find you’ve improved a lot so you love it again. But it quickly fades in interest once more, never being within that grip of an always interest...

Sometimes... Some nights... I wish I don’t wake up the next day... I want to cry, but I’m always too tired to even shed a tear... I don’t want to leave this world, and my friends within it, but at the same time I’ll feel like I’m no use to anyone. Or anything... I’ll try to talk it out with friends, but it only works so much to quell the problems within my mind...

But then there’s always time for me to remember... My friendships I’ve built and nurtured over the years, the friends that have truly stuck by my side, who understand me, and the shit I go through mentally, who pull me aside and help me chill out if I start to get heated up, and even have done things to help me out when I needed it most, even if they had to spend a bit of money to do so... I have to thank all of them... For without them, I wouldn’t be the fun, chaotic kitty I’d be today... For without them... I’d be dead probably...

I’ve been on... An emotional roller coaster as of late and... Hardly any of my friends are able to aid me because they have their own crap they have to deal with... Or they just don’t get the hints I’m trying to put out to let them know I need some company, some help... I know posting on the internet to complete strangers is kind of frowned upon by society, but... I need to vent, so I’m taking the chance for now... Because I’m sure others have felt like I have, and... They need these words as much as I do...

Remember your friends you have, hold them close, cherish them. Even if your hobbies take a hit because of your emotional state, don’t let it kill you inside. Your friends, if they’re truly yours... Will help you pick up the pieces and keep moving forward... I know I’ve a truly amazing group of friends I’ve been gifted and I don’t know what I’d do if I even lost ONE of them... I don’t even like to think about the possibility... So that’s why I say cherish each one you have, and just as you may need help sometimes, they might need help too. We, the mentally f***ed, have a responsibility. To care for our friends when they need us, just as they care so much for us when we need them... So keep on being you... I’ll keep being me... And let’s all be one absolutely amazing, dysfunctional, family...

[thechezure]

The Chaos of Anarchy is That There Is No Longer Chaos

Aka, I've no clue what I'm doing anymore. And probably cease to care in what I'm doing anymore. Everyone have a wonderful Sunday~ =P

[thechezure]

~Cheshire Gaming~ [The Past Few Weeks]

HEEEELLOOOOOOOO KITTENS! I know it’s been awhile since I last did a Cheshire Game Time, or since my last actual blogging “On The Topic Of...” in which I covered “Brain Age DS” for the DS, but I’m back with some new... Stuff... So without further ado, this is the past few weeks in Cheshire Gaming~

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I’m gonna go ahead and say here that in the recent two weeks ( Which is what I’m going on for at least my Steam games ) there’s not a whole lot on PC, but I’ve played a lot of games on my PS3. We’re gonna start with PC, though, because it’ll be quicker!

!!!PC GAMING!!!

First off we have Spiral Knights. Now, not a whole lot of this was played in the past two weeks, only a few hours, which was spent feebly trying to find materials I needed to work on my 4 Star helmet... Sword/Gun... And Shield... Yeah, moving on... Next we have TF2 ( Team Fortress 2 ), a game I... don’t play a whole lot anymore... There’s nothing truly wrong with the game itself, it’s just a pain in the ass to try to play because of so many tryhards, idiots, and assholes that now plague the servers trying to be wannabe heroes, things the classes aren’t supposed to be without the proper equipment ( Combat Medic and Combat Engie come to mind immediately as I encountered BOTH the last few times I played, and neither had the right equipment for it ), etc. And THEN they tell you off when you try to help and suggest they be a class they can actually use without trying to use special loadouts they don’t even have proper equipment for... So yeah, that’s fun...

The BIG ones the past few weeks, though, have been Alice: Madness Returns and Fallout: NV Ultimate Edition... We’re going to start with Alice Madness Returns... A game that’s a sequel to “American McGee’s Alice” back in 2000 ( Madness Returns was released in June of 2011 [according to Bing at least] ), and although I never played American McGee’s Alice, I LOVE Madness Returns ( I’ll probably do a proper “On The Topic Of...” later on today since I’ve got SO much to say on it, and that’s what that’s actually meant for, for me to review the game as I’m playing it. ) . The second game Fallout: NV Ultimate is a bit more... Of an odd case because I was gifted it as a late Christmas present and... I only wanted it on PC ( partly ) for modding and playing around purposes. But at the same time, I have a TON of DLC on PC that I don’t have with my PS3 version so I’ll at least be doing a srsness playthrough of it too while modding the fuck out of it. ( This’ll probably get it’s own “On The Topic Of...” too. )

!!!CONSOLE AND OTHER GAMING!!!

Now I WAS just going to do PS3 at the time, but I claim extenuating circumstances... ( I FOUND MY GBA SP AND HAD NOSTALGIA, OKAY?! D< ) So we’re gonna do the PS3 games I’ve been playing then do the the other stuff.... Yeah...

So on PS3 in the past few weeks, I’ve been playing a good few games... I’ve put an hour or so into Midnight Club: LA Complete ( As much as I love Midnight Club, it gets boring to me quick and is best in small bursts ), and then I’ve put several hours into Need for Speed Rivals, Tomba 2 ( a PSOne classic that gave me SUPER nostalgia and made me SUPER happy. ^3^ ) , and Ratchet and Clank Future: A Crack in Time ( A game I need to play more of since I was without the R&C PS3 games for YEARS ).

Now onto the others!!! I’ve a couple mobile games to mention first before I go to other stuff. Brave Frontier Global, which is so fucking addictive to me for some reason, I guess it reminds me of Pokemon in a way with how it works. As for the other mobile game I’m to mention... Well, two actually. Deemo, a BEAUTIFUL music game on android and iPhone ( I think, can’t fact check that at moment. ), and Tap Titans, a Cookie Clicker-esque game you play a little bit of and then save and exit after you have a few “Heroes” helping you out and let run in the background while you play your meaningful games.

And now the OTHERS... AKA my GBA SP and me rediscovering how long it’s been since I played it since I had forgotten how fun yet hard Megaman Battle Network was, and forgetting I restarted my play of Mario & Luigi SuperStar Saga. O.o

With that kittens, I’m done on the past few weeks in Cheshire Gaming. I know I probably missed some stuff, but oh well, I’ll note about it later if I feel like it, if I remember. XD

[thechezure]

On The Topic Of... [Brain Age for NDS]

So, I’m going to call the single game segments “On The topic Of...” from now on... I’ll come up with a name for the multi-game segments... Anyways, with that out of the way, let’s get on the topic of... Brain Age for the Nintendo DS.

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Now... I bought this game TODAY, pre-owned, from Gamestop... And... I’m already angry at it because it keeps calling me old!!! D< 

I’m gonna start with the Quick Tests... I did the Brain Age test 5 times and on the first try I didn’t understand the instructions ( because I didn’t read them fully ) so it said my brain was in the 90s... Well, after a read of the instructions and comprehension... it called my brain 70s... And now it’s 60s but that’s with the most recent tests two tests... And also on those quests when I would say Blue, it kept thinking I was trying to say Black and so it buzzed to say try again... So APPARENTLY you HAVE to speak PERFECT ENGLISH with a PERFECT VOICE for the GAME TO RECOGNIZE IT!

From there, let’s move on to the next Quick Test... Quick Training... Basically math... Easy right? ... Wrong. HANDWRITING TIME! On my first attempt I failed bad, but I failed to notice something that it took a second try to notice... You have to write NEAR PERFECT NUMBERS IN A SPECIFIC WAY... 9... 3... and 4... Are the numbers that I try putting in that it gives me shit for and gives me a wrong answer and no retry...

And now the final Quick Test... Sudoku... The first test failed... Because apparently you can only make FIVE MISTAKES before it FAILS you outright...

I will try again and probably update on more of this game later on, for now I feel it in my bets interest to actually give it time instead of playing it as I type this... So this is TheC³ signing off... Until the next topic...

[thechezure]

NAME CHANGE AND EXPLANATION ( & Other Things )

The name I originally started using WAS WAY TOO LONG I REALIZED!!! ... With some help of one of my best friends... ANYWHO, I’ve also been debating on making a change to the blog’s name for awhile now. So from now on it’s TheCCubed. And it’ll probably be that way for the foreseeable future.

With that out of the way, I’m formulating a few things I wanna do for my blog... Including perhaps a weekly segment on what I’ve been playing... Although that one miiiiight be a bit boring after three or four entries... We’ll see how it goes...

I’m also planning to put more art on my Tumblr. Once I start getting good art out again... And once I finish my current commissions...