i close my eyes.. i open my eyes.. and everything is still the same
no matter how far i go i always seem to come back to this same place. every night, its there waiting for me. waiting for me to step right back in, waiting for me to just give in. it whispers to me late at night.. things like "you love it here.. you can never get away.. this is who you are." and all i could do is stare blankly with no response, with no reaction, with no emotion to tell me how i should i feel. its just me and the darkness.. face to face
i try to talk back but the words never actually come out.. they stay in my head, TRAPPED.. in this cage of a brain i have. feels as if i been searching for so long looking for this key to free all those words so i could scream back and say "thats not who i am anymore!" but its so dark in here.. that it feels like i will never find that key..
so every night it was just us two.. me and the darkness.. stuck in that corner.. i was lost.. didnt know if i was human or not at that time of night. i stopped searching for that key, i stopped trying to talk to back. for that moment i lost all hope. i gave into the fact that maybe thats who i am, and maybe thats where i am suppose to be.. i was ready to shake hands with the darkness, i was ready to say "you won.. you own me.. forever" and thats when i saw a little light shining coming from nowhere.. i stood there still just squinting watching it as it got closer and closer, not knowing what to do i opened my eyes wider and got blinded..
finally.. as my vision got clear, so did
that was the first time i saw her face..
i felt free.. you freed me..