#theheroindiaries

[fentitrbl]

IM NOT CRYING YOU ARE, THIS WAS THE LAST COPY IN THE BOOKSTORE 🤧 IT WAS DESTINED TO BE.

[uncannyfantastic]

Message from our buddy @nikkisixxpixx — to all who ordered, hope you enjoy it. #heroindiaries #theheroindiaries #nikkisixx #heavymetalmagazine

[heavypedia]

Há 13 anos: Era publicado o livro The Heroin Diaries A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star de Nikki Sixx. . . . . . Tags:#NikkiSixx #TheHeroinDiaries #TheHeroinDiariesAYearInTheLifeOfAShatteredRockStar #MötleyCrüe #TooFastForLove #ShoutAtTheDevil #TheatreOfPain #GirlsGirlsGirls #DrFeelgood #MotleyCrue #GenerationSwine #NewTattoo #TheHeroinDiariesSoundtrack #SaintsOfLosAngeles #ThisIsGonnaHurt #7 #ModernVintage #PrayersForTheDamnedVol1 #PrayersForTheDamnedVol2 #SixxAM #Metal #HeavyMetal #GlamMetal #AlternativeMetal #Rock #HardRock #WilliamWayne #Heavypédia #Heavypedia #NaçãoRoqueira https://www.instagram.com/p/CFRx4LKA2FC/?igshid=64fzgmnw7528

[hopeless-song]

Here's a little fragment of my new cover. It's a @sixxam song called "Life is beautiful". I'm a HUGE fan of the band, and of course, of Nikki, DJ and James. ❤️ The link to the full cover is in my Instagram bio, tho I'll post the link here, anyways hahah... https://youtu.be/b5ygvY7dUMI @nikkisixxpixx @djashba @jamesmichaelofficial @eleven7music @sixxsenseradio #lifeisbeautiful #sixxam #nikkisixx #djashba #jamesmichael #theheroindiaries #elevensevenmusic #cover #vocal #singer #vocalist @shure #shure #motiv #music #musician #fan

[ashsevenfold]

December 23, 1987. Thirty years ago today.. Second read through of this book, and now instead of reading it as a Mötley Crüe fan.. I'm reading it, having two addicts of my own in my life. This book hit home so hard the second time around. I have never loved, or appreciated a book SO much. So thank you, @nikkisixxpixx for surviving this day 30 years ago to tell your story, to share your diaries. I only hope this book will hit my brother and sister like it did me. 💜 #NikkiSixx #TheHeroinDiaries #Decmber231987 #MotleyCrue #30yearslater

[jlokensky]

From Motley Crue, Sixx AM, Nikki Sixx. #nikkisixx #motleycrue #theheroindiaries (at Bookends Bookstore)

[kcheartofficial]

Music Saves

I took a photography class in high school, freshman year. I was really into Motley Crue and looking cool for all the other dorks that didn’t know what they were doing. 

I did an dramatic interpretation of Nikki Sixx’s The Heroin Diaries for my speech class freshman year. 

I was scary depressed during high school. I would self abuse- I was never able to get my hands on razor blades, so I used what I had available. Sewing needles, yarn needles, hot wax, scalding hot baths. I needed to exorcise this demon that was fucking with my brain. Yay repressed, sheltered teenage angst. Maybe it was a parental falter, maybe it was a personal falter. I could blame the school system. But why bother? I’m here now and I’m okay. I don’t want to open healed wounds to get to the bottom of nothing. 

Back to Nikki Sixx and Sixx: A.M. and The Heroin Diaries. 

The Heroin Diaries had come out a few years before I got to high school and I listened to it through the entire time I was going through this semester long self abuse session. It was therapeutic. I’d listen to this CD at night, when my family was asleep, and I would cry as hard as I fucking could to get rid of all the tears. When I say exorcising the demon, I meant it fucking felt like I was getting rid of something toxic- I could cry so hard and when the CD would end I would be asleep. Every tear was one less drop of poison I had to keep with me.

My dad gave me a copy of Sixx’s photography book, This Is Gonna Hurt, when it came out and I read it to death. I took a photography class in high school the same year I was self abusing. If one were to look at my old photos, they’d see it. They’d have to look, but they’d see it. 

I was suicidal throughout high school because of many reasons that I don’t care to dig up now. But that fucking book, and that fucking CD, kept me alive. I took photos and I wrote in a journal (just like Nikki) every fucking day. And then I realized what self-love was- I think that can only happen when you realize what self-abuse is. Unless you’re born hearing it. Can’t live until you die, right?

I’m listening to “Girl with Golden Eyes” right now and it’s ripping me apart inside with gratitude. This CD (and that book) is the reason I didn’t take a slash at my wrists. It’s the reason I didn’t run away until I had a place to go and it’s the reason I’m still making art and it’s the reason that when I looked in the mirror, crying and blurry eyed and depressed and suicidal and literally bleeding, I saw myself. I saw that life was beautiful. 

Do not. Take away. A teenager’s. Music. You might take their life, too.

Now I’m painting and taking pictures and writing music and revising my first novel and standing up for those who the world thinks isn’t beautiful anymore.

I’m married to one of the most light-filled souls to ever grace a guitar’s (and my heart’s) strings and I’m in a relationship with one of the most inspirational and genuine cats to ever saunter across my timeline.

I’m in a possible collaboration with a local photographer. Our mutual link? Nikki Sixx’s work. 

Life is Beautiful. 

Art is the weapon. Don’t disarm your children. 

Sweet dreams. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fs0J13nSOuA

[amberstreetinfo]

#nikkisixx #theheroindiaries #thegrove (at The Grove)