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[heyhara]

Mi amore

11:49 PM

I am starting to write this letter so I could greet you at exactly 12 MN. There are so many things that I’d want to put in this post but I am afraid I can’t find the right words to say them to you. At least, I’ll try.

Happy birthday. The only thing that I want you to be in your day is to be happy, not only on your birthday but also for your entire life. I couldn’t be more thankful in knowing you and meeting you in my life. Alhamdulillah for that. 

Some people in your life think that you are not a good person but believe me when I say this, you are the best person for me. You try so hard to be better each and every day. I could see it during the days that we’re together. You came into my life at the  most unexpected time. I didn’t even realize I was slowly liking you back. Oh well, thanks to that sense of humor and oh my gosh that good smell of yours. *u*

With you, I always question my sanity. You never fail to make me smile or laugh everytime we fight. Even though there are times that it’s difficult to make me smile. Hahahaha. Day by day, I get to know you more even though it feels like I’ve known you in my life for too long but there are still little pieces that would solve the puzzle. You are a selfless person and the strongest human being that I know. You always help your family at times that they need you the most. And you should be proud of that. If ever you feel helpless and hopeless, always know that I am here. I am always here. I got you always in all ways. Don’t ever feel that you aren’t enough ‘cause for me you are more than enough.

I am sorry for not spending your birthday with you because you already know why but I want you to know that you are in my thoughts more often than not. Especially on this day. As much as I want to spend this day with you, I really couldn’t. Another day, perhaps? But but but… at least we are under the same sky, ‘di ba? I hope my words will try to lighten up your day even in the slightest way. But if ever we’re together on this day, I have so much plans in my mind and I have so many things to do with you. Maybe we could eat breakfast at McDo or KFC just wearing our pajama’s and with that no-ligo look, we could go watch a movie and be not mindful of the time, we could go for a drive in the city just the two of us and eat pizza but sadly, we can’t do those because you know why na. 

I hope the world treats you nice today because you deserve it. If you ever feel sad or frightened, breathe. Or if that happens when we’re together, hold my hand. You will be fine. Things will be doing great soon. In Shaa Allah. I have one thing for you - a hug. That, I know, will make you feel safe and loved. But I will give it to you the next time we see each other.

Happy birthday to you. Be happy for me, okay? Be happy for your parents and for everyone in your life. Yup, be happy ‘cause it makes you look pogi. Uy, hahahaha. And oh, I hate you for scaring me whenever I’m alone in this house ‘cause you freaking know how scared I am when you tell me those creepy things.

P.S. I DON’T HATE YOU PALA. HEHE. SLIGHT LANG!!!!

P.P.S. SEE YOU IN AUGUST. LOL.

Love, 

Bai / Johara.

[heyhara]

you are by far the greatest thing that ever happened to me

[heyhara]

23:10 always know that i got you always in all ways

[heyhara]

to the one i love, you asked me how many times what was it with you that i liked and loved. there were multiple reasons why i liked you back but when it comes to loving you, i had no reason why. perhaps, my love for you just came unknowingly. i just woke up one day that i love you. not knowing why, not knowing how. every day, i'm looking forward in seeing you, in sharing moments with you. you make my heart ache, you make my knees tremble, you make my heart have thunderous heartbeat, you make me nervous, you make me happy, you love me. i was always the girl who's afraid of taking risks. i entertained some guys but i never got serious in going out with them. and then you came, you changed my mindset. you took away my fear of being attached, my fear of taking risks. and that's one thing that i'll always thank you for. the lunch-out, the study-out, the "let's eat dinner together because i wanna see you", the good morning texts, the "i miss you's", the unexpected "i love you" messages that you send me everyday, the "you look so pretty everyday" compliments i get from you, the "let me tie your shoes", the long walks, the real talks and ethose were the little things, the "you're the one i'm getting this strength from", and the everything. those were only some of the little things you did that made me happy. i never knew you'd come into my life at the most unexpected time. i never knew that i'd know someone like you. i never knew that you'd become so special to me. i love the you that you show me and i love the you that you show in people. i love your dark sides as well as the bright. i love you. here's to life goals before relationship goals. i love you. always.

[heyhara]

last night, 03/22/2016 11:58 he texted me not to sleep yet 'cause he might drop by at me before he goes to the province. at first, i thought he was just joking. then, he called me. he told me he was outside our subdivision and if i wouldn't show up, he's gonna wait 'til morning until i show up. i showed up. i told him the directions to my house. well, basically, not really the house just in the kanto. i snuck out of my room and silently walked out of my way of the house he was there. he told me to go inside the car and we'd just talk for a little while. he told me he's gonna leave early so he decided to see me first. he brought food even though i wasn't hungry. i really thought he was just joking in the first place. damn, boy. you gotta stop giving me this kind of feeling.