#therapist lore

[mikupolar]

okay i did NOT forget about breaking up with my horrible therapist i am going to do it tomorrow (i was supposed to do it a week ago but i got sick)

[mikupolar]

omw to break up with my therapist 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[mikupolar]

my ex therapist should die actually. i saw her profile on a therapist website and apparently she offers help for "questions about sexual and gender identity." so conversion therapy, huh?

[mikupolar]

ohhh i just realized it's been exactly 1 MONTH since i broke up with my therapist. i haven't thought about her at all. and i haven't regretted it once

[mikupolar]

might have to actually break up with my therapist and find a new one bc i'm so sick of having to educate her about stuff... especially autism but also stuff related to queerness... she's like completely clueless about Everything even the fucking basic stuff (bro didn't even know that the word transs*xual is outdated) also when i first told her i was bi she started to talk about some freudian shit and theories of what causes homo/bisexuality (they didn't even make any sense and they sounded incredibly pseudoscientific) 😭😭😭 and then i called her out and she was defensive as shit. and then i kinda gave up and i really shouldn't have

AND it's so wild that almost everything she knows about autism is bc of me 😭 like at first she didn't even know that sensory issues are a HUGE part of autism???? and even though i've educated her SO MUCH she still doesn't really get it and goes 😮 when i tell her about some extremely common (and relatively well-known) autistic experience

and i really let it slide bc well autism is one of the more rare conditions and she can't know everything etc etc but so what??? she is a licenced psychologist and she should educate herself!!!! and if for some reason that's not possible then she should go hey i think i may not be the best therapist for you maybe you should find someone who can cater to your needs better. but no!!!! she doesn't give a shit!!!

sometimes i just feel like she only wants my money anyway lmao. on top of all this homophobia and ableism and ignorance she is also very passive and doesn't really give me a lot of input. i feel like there's no goal. she is not guiding me anywhere and really helping me with my struggles. she just kinda goes "oh" at everything and then belittles my experiences and compares me to other ppl lmaooo

lol why have i been seeing her for two years already. it's almost like i'm repeating a pattern here (not leaving bc i would feel bad for the other person and also i give ppl like a thousand chances and also i'm afraid of change)

but. i am going to confront her on tuesday for sure hope it goes well 😃

[mikupolar]

ughhhh i'm fucking shocked about what my therapist said to me a few days ago. i just happened to mention my gf's brother who is autistic (like me) and i just mentioned stuff like yeah he likes math and board games but didn't really even tell her about what kinda stuff he struggles with. and then she goes "oh so he's more severely autistic than you." BRO WHAT??????

yeah he is most definitely more stereotypical than me bc you know he's a nerdy cis white guy but like WHAT????? just bc someone is a nerd who likes fucking MATH AND BOARD GAMES you can't really deduce "how autistic" they are??? and how dare you call him "severely autistic" that's so fucking offensive. how dare you call someone's whole fucking existence "severe." he's literally just chilling. yes he has struggles (the same kinda struggles as i do!!!!) but he's doing kinda well actually. AND WHAT DO YOU EVEN KNOW I JUST MENTIONED MATH AND FUCKING BOARD GAMES

and like what the fuck was the point even. i've been talking about my autism with her for like 2 years and she knows exactly what kinda stuff i struggle with. and i struggle A LOT. but then she feels the need to compare when there's some guy with nerdy interests??? what is even the point? what is the deduction? finish your sentence? he is more "severely autistic" SO...? what is your point that you're trying to make????

it's like she was trying to diminish my struggles with comparing me to someone whose struggles seem "more severe" than mine. but it's not like my gf's brother even has more struggles than me lmao (i think on average me and him have the same amount of struggles he just presents more stereotypically....) and even if he had more struggles than me??? it's kinda weird that you mention it like that? why do these allistic health care professionals always feel the need to bring up higher support needs autistics in such a weird and pathologising way?? like "at least you're not like THOSE autistics." do you not realize how fucking dehumanizing that is?? like did you not know that higher support needs autistics do have thoughts and feelings and they would probably not appreciate being spoken about in such a pathologising manner. i shouldn't have to say this out loud!!!!

yeah i'm not only mad bc of myself but also bc she kinda revealed how she feels about the whole autistic community. which is fucking incredible. like she knows that I KNOW a lot about autism and i've been even educating her about it. she even read my thesis which was about attitudes and stereotypes towards autistic ppl and THIS IS EXACTLY the kinda stuff i was criticizing!!?? did you even read the paper???? it had like 60+ scientific sources and she still feels the need to go "achshually this person has to be this and that just because i perceive them this way 🤓☝️" i'm shocked. i'm angry.