#therapyproblems

[freckiled]

its crazy and uncomfortable when you start to feel yourself wanting to die again

[magno171789]

Knowing my therapist is going to gone for two weeks 😱

[tedakoko]

😅😅😅 #therapyproblems

[unfaithfulgay]

8.14.16

Three things that made today terrible: Social anxiety at church because I had to miss the past two weeks Feeling totally wiped out...*before* therapy Crying so much I couldn’t see trying to get out all the words about feelings that I could think of.  Aka therapy. Three things that made today amazing: Having today and tomorrow off work, which means I have just enough plans for tomorrow to feel excited. Taking the evening off, which today meant two(!) episodes of Dear Hank and John, and watching The Fundamentals of Caring.  A+ Being able to fall apart some (crying) without feeling like a total fucking screwup.  Like I’m a person who is sad sometimes, but I’m still a person and I still work as a person. Lesson of the day: Yes, you *do* still work as a person.

[alwaysalongwayfromhome-blog]

This is why therapists drop me:

Me: I’m trans Therapist: *head explodes* Therapist: How have you been? Me: *thinking:well, that’s hard to say because I’ve been 5 different people this week....how do I word this?* Um.....up and down Therapist: How do you feel right now? Me: *thinking: well, maverique me is pretty chill, but guy me is freaking out* Um....I dunno, a lot I guess.... Me: I’m genderfluid Therapist: What does that mean? Me: My gender changes. To me it’s kinda like being different people at different times. Therapist: Sounds like that could be a personality disorder Me: I’m asexual right now Therapist: Are you sure? Depression can cause low sex drive. Me: I’m aromantic right now Therapist: What is that? Me: I don’t have any romantic attractions and I’m not interested in them Therapist: Are you sure you’re not just afraid of getting hurt and don’t want to be close to anyone? Me: I’m polya Therapist: What’s that? Me: I have multiple partners Therapist: How many? Me: 2 right now Therapist: Why do you feel the need for two partners? Me: That’s how it worked out. It’s how I’m built I guess Therapist: Do you think you’ll ever commit to just one partner? Me:.......probably not.....I don’t particularly care to if I happen to love or be attracted to multiple people Therapist: Don’t you see how that could contribute to depression? Don’t you think there’s someone out there you could be monogamous with? Therapist: It seems like you’re very fragmented, maybe we can work on integrating yourself and creating more stability Me: *thinking: so you’re basically saying “Let’s try to make you not fluid!”* I never said I was fragmented, just that I’m not just one person... Therapist: That sounds like a personality disorder Me: *sigh* Me: I’m gender neutral right now Therapist: I don’t understand, weren’t you a guy last week? Me: Yes, I told you I was fluid Therapist: Oh that’s right! Speaking of that, have you heard anything about this personality disorder called. . . Me: No. Just no. *hangs up on call-in session*

[arielsaysno]

My councillor once told me tumblr was a bad influence. So I responded, very politely 'fuck off.'