Another one bites the dust..
As in, another job I have failed to maintain. I hate myself for it but oh well. There's always other options, right? I blame my ADHD honestly. Fuck that part of me for real though.. Idk which is worse, having bipolar 1 disorder or having the shit show that is inattentive ADHD.. It makes basically every normal adult function you're just automatically supposed to know how to do.. Or be good at even, a struggle for me. Getting to work on time, etc.. It's not that I don't try. I really do, I just fail just as much, ha. Oh well, now to scour indeed and other sites for hopefully some kind of at home shit. Seriously. That way I don't even have to worry about leaving the fucking house. Honest to God, I don't know what else to do. I'm at a loss here, I've went through at least 7 or 8 jobs in the past year and I'm not even exaggerating.. I have a therapy appointment coming up, hoping to talk to Sara about how much I'm struggling.. Don't know if it will do any good but at least I'll be putting it out there. Also, the organization thats meant to help people like me get and keep jobs has ironically been calling me over and over here lately... lol... lightbulb much? I'll give her a call tomorrow. Either before I go to community service or while I'm on a break there.. Yeah, I'm also a criminal. But just in the slightest degree. Never been charged with anything more than a misdemeanor thank God and thank my mother. That's a story for another time though. I'm so happy right now I finally got myself a new laptop charger. So now I can get on here whenever I please and not have to worry about this damn thing dying on me.. Another thing I want to kind of research is.. going back to school possibly? I honestly really want to give it another try. We shall see I guess. Now that I'm on these newer meds hopefully they'll actually help make somewhat of a difference. I hope so. I really do. I'm begging God and the universe to just let me let myself get my foot in the door. SOMEWHERE. ugh. Oh k. Now to job search. Until next time, the non existent readers I have. lmao.