Might've made a mistake today
I wrote a fake suicide note to satiate that curiosity that wants to know what would happen if I actually died
And was confronted by our counselor of mental health.
I can pretend surprisingly well, believe it or not, and was able to get by her. It was easier than I thought it would be. She asked me questions, I pretended to know nothing about it.
I masked my handwriting to be cursive and I don’t write in cursive often. So thankfully I got by that bit. She tried to be evasive, asked about my family a bit, what I do besides band which is the class she contacted me in, and I answered everything honestly except for my anxiety.
The thing she seemed most interested in was my hobby of drawing. Said something about vent art, and didn’t press much further than to ask how I liked the art teacher at this school. How her teaching style is and whatnot.
I gave her “pointers” about who sits where, played dumb as to what the note was about, taking what she gave for info and ONLY what she gave. I relied on her having looked at my grades and knowing I’m a kid who can put 2 and 2 together, asking if it was a suicide note a while after she asked if I would go seek help before killing myself.
Now I’m bashing her a bit but she was super nice and chill, and I would hang with her more often if I could. She’s also really funny.
But I’m kinda on their watch list now? Because when I get curious it’s hard to stop myself? Like
