starter for @iinterstellars !! 𝘧𝘵 . 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘯𝘦 & 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘴
finding out that thomas is married was the final nail in the coffin that was defne's crush on thomas . for weeks , she's told herself that it's fine . that it wasn't a real crush anyways . none of it really meant anything . she was bored , and it's the apocalypse , and thomas is an objectively handsome man . she needed somewhere to spend her attention . defne has to tell herself that or she'll continue to think too much about the way they could turn and smile at each other , the sentences filled with innuendos , their knees touching at dinner , spending hours talking in a small room . she has it have it be meaningless. CONNOR , on the other hand , is very available . he's one of the newer guards helping out ethan at the front , and has made a few harmless visits to the clinic . when defne finally stopped paying attention to thomas , she realised connor had been paying attention to HER . so . what else is there really to do with this time ? a girl needs sex .
speaking of which . connor is well out of condoms , and defne isn't dumb enough to have sex with him without one . she glances over her shoulder , to where thomas is hunched over , doing god knows what . by habit , she admires the lean of his back , the broadness of his shoulders . defne's eyes rake over him , before she reminds herself what she needs to do . her first day here , thomas showed her where the condoms ( he said ' prophylactics ' ) are . she's careful at pushing back her chair , standing , and trying to casually walk over to the cabinet in question while thomas is otherwise occupied . no way is she explaining THIS to him .