I once had perspective, and nothing was easy but I did it all. I accomplished school, relationships, and a feeling of being wholesome. Every so often I forget who that girl is and I learn and I grow and morph into something else, but along with that other girl I lose the strength and perspective that came with her. And I experience truly horrible scenes in a life where I just never thought things like that would happen. I don’t understand why we have such a horrible world sometimes and why people can affect us so much. I understand we have the power to let them hurt us directly and indirectly. But I don’t think that’s always the case because we don’t have the power to create a safety shield for manifestations that aren’t under our possible control. Anyway I miss that girl. I don’t know how to get her back, she was great, and although I could certainly agree she could learn from some of the things I know now, I could really use her company and wisdom and incredible confidence.