#thread:jessica

[blackboxwcrning]

CONTINUED FROM HERE.. @msmayaparker

jess: here is the hospital jess: i just got off work

[alcrayildiz]

“have you ever left a situation and thought that when you left that things would get better? like,” jessica paused and looked over at the person seated on the park bench next to her. “you thought maybe that there was no possible way that it could get any worse?” she added. after her run in with axel, she’s immediately regretted moving here but what was she supposed to do? she signed a year lease and took up a new job. she couldn’t just leave. “it’s like you leave right? and one of the very things you were trying to escape follows you...” she trailed off, looking out in the distance for a moment. “i mean, does that make sense or do i sound insane right now?”

@inabsentiahq​

[blackboxwcrning]

jessica couldn’t stop the giggles from spilling past her red painted lips as she stumbled into her shared apartment with her girlfriend on her arm. the two were just getting home from the wedding and it was clear that they’d enjoyed themselves and took advantage of the open bar. she closed the door behind her, practically slamming it shut and she gasped, putting her fingers over her lips and shushing it herself. she looked back at maxine and grinned, her arms coming to drape around her girlfriend’s neck. “you’re so pretty, you know that? and i just love you so much.” she cooed, pressing her lips to the others and then poking her nose as she pulled away. she moved toward the couch and fell back, holding her legs up. “i’ve been wearing these things so long, i think they might be glued to my feet. help!” 

@hazymp3​

[blackboxwcrning]

paranoid was an understatement. maybe jess was overthinking things because really, no one was going to come right into her job and take her, right? still, the mere thought of it happening had her legs moving faster than the normally would and she stayed in hallways where the other nurses populated. she refused to go anywhere alone and even convinced a couple of her nurse friends to join her in the bathroom. she didn’t mean to be that way. hell, she wouldn’t be this way if things hadn’t gone the way that they had but it’s not like she could go back. she’d been taken, starved, fed on, and abused, and now she was trying to heal from everything that she went through. she was hiding around a corner when dan almost walked past her and she grabbed him, tugging him toward her with wide eyes. “is that broody, blonde guy still out there?” she asked. “i’m scared to look.”

@hollowmuses​ (dan)

[blackboxwcrning]

jess felt as if she were being followed, a lot like she had the night she’d been kidnapped or maybe she was just paranoid. she’d kept her leaving the house to a minimum and of course, one of the few times she left she was on her way to get taken again. when she felt as thought they were too close, she turned around and swung without taking into account who it was behind her. “back off-” she hissed and then, her eyes widened. “jesus, axel. i thought you were someone else. i’m sorry. shit.” she apologized and bent down to check on her, “are you okay? i mean, you’re a wolf but...i don’t know. i didn’t bust your nose, did i?”

@hollowmuses​

[blackboxwcrning]

jessica couldn’t sleep. she was comfortable and she felt safe at home with maxine but still, she couldn’t stop thinking about what happened. she got up, going out to her small balcony, if that’s even what you called it. she just felt like she needed some fresh air and she needed to get away, leave hollow’s creek for a few days but she knew that wasn’t an option. she was lost in her thoughts when she heard the sliding glass door open behind her and she turned, her eyes settling on her girlfriend. “sorry,” she started, immediately reaching out for her and wrapping her arms around her. “i didn’t mean to wake you up. i just needed a breather.” she rested her head on her shoulder and closed her eyes, taking maxine’s seat in. “i don’t have to go back to work until next week. maybe we could do something to distract us. what do you think?”

@hazymp3​

[alcrayildiz]

there were a lot of days that jessica wanted to rethink her decision to be an ER nurse. she plopped down on the bar stool, “sorry i’m late.” she breathed out and grabbed the drink she knew they ordered her before downing it and looking over at them. “look, it was a long day. i needed that drink. thanks, by the way.” she sighed and let her long hair out of the ponytail she’d been wearing it in all day. “next rounds on me. what’re you drinking?” she asked, her fingers running through her own hair to release some of the tension. she paused for a couple of beats, her eyes closed as she tried to relax in this moment, “tell me something good. i’ve seen a lot of shitty things today and i need something.”

@inabsentiahq​

[alcrayildiz]

jessica had kind of...being avoiding maxine since the carnival and not for anything she did but because she was ashamed of everything that had happened and she’d not been herself, and she really just didn’t want the other girl to see her like that. but a couple of drunk texts the night before, ones that included calling herself a ‘fuck up’, led to her inviting the girl over the other night so that she could fully explain what was going on. they were sitting on the couch together, silently eating the dinner she’d ordered for the both of them. “i meant it, you know? i would...ask you but i am fucked up. axel made that very clear the night of the carnival.” she paused for a couple of moments, pushing her rice around her bowl and then looking over at her, “i’m sorry i’ve been avoiding you but i’ve been...caught up in my own shit. he was right though. i don’t deserve to be happy and i am...a whore.”

@glcryandgcre​