#tiny voices

[theredquilt]

‘Don’t show ‘em my little socks’

[chemicalforgery]

Tiny voices

Notes: Angst with happy ending. I hope this is going to help me going back into writing. A little based on some of my own experience only that I don't have a Cian in my life. Also this is mostly unedited so there are probably mistakes here and there.

Trigger warning: depression and breaking down

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It was late at night in one of the last days of summer. Kay and Cian were cuddling in their bed while watching a movie. One window was open , letting the cold air of the night come in the warn room.

"Babe?" Kay was trying her best not to show her true feelings through her tone.

"Yeah? You're good?"

"I was thinking..."

"About what?" Cian was also trying their best not to sound worried. They knew Kay and they knew where this conversation was heading to.

"I think I should give up."

'G-give up?.. Please! Please don't mean it that way!!!' "What do you mean?"

"I haven't wrote anything in weeks. I could barely do anything I like. I whine all day about my inexistent problems. I can barely concentrate."

"Kay.."

"And the worst are the voices. They got so loud lately.."

'Don't you dare say it!!' "Kay.. babe..."

"I.. I think I should give up. Try find some other interests. Try be like normal people.."

"Baby , please don't say that." Cian's grip around Kay tighter. They have been there. They know how it is. "You're an amazing writer. You wrote so many wonderful things. Everyone loves your writing!"

Kay stopped them from talking , starting loudly but ending up in a whisper. "But I can't do it anymore!! I... I can't do the only thing I'm good at..."

"Baby... Everyone gets thought stuff like that.." Cian decided to keep their head facing her chest. If they were going to cry , they didn't what her to see them. "You'll get over it. I trust you. I believe in you because I know you."

Kay started laughing. It wasn't a normal laugh. It was a broken one. A laugh that end up with Kay sobbing. The second Cian heard them crying they got up on their knees and opened their arms. In this state Kay may or may not want physical contact. It was her decision to make. She looked at them between tears. She got up , wrapped her arms around them and buried her head in their chest.

Between sobs she started talking. Her speech wasn't clear and she took a lot of pauses to catch her breath , but the emotion was raw. "Why??? Why do you love me??? Why do you believe in me?? Why do you trust me??? Why?? Why??? WHY????" The last word came with a scream. A scream of frustration, a scream of pain , a scream from all her doubts.

Cian didn't answer. They knew they should wait. They should wait for Kay to calm down. Then they could tell her the same things she used to tell them when they were in a bad place. It was time for Cian to be the rock Kay needed so much in her life right now.

Neither of them knew how much time had passed when Kay calmed down. Cian's t-shirt was now stained with tears but neither one cared. Kay was now laying down on the bed, silent. Cian went in their kitchen to bring some water and some painkillers in case Kay hot a headache. When they returned the bedroom , Kay was staring at the wall and hugging the big dolphin plushie she got for her birthday from GD.

Cian sat down next to her. "Kay.. Babe.. Angel... Can you listen to me a little?"

Kay didn't verbally answered , just nodded.

"Do you wanna know why I call you angel? Because I feel like if there is a God up there and of the angels exists , you're definitely one send by God himself in my life. Actually in everyone's lives. Not only you helped me more than I ever expected you to do , but you helped so many people. You helped me with my dystopia. You helped Johanna with her abusive relationship. You helped Cassidy with her trust issues. You helped GD with her identity crisis. You helped Robbie with his communication issues. You helped so many people through your writing. That's why I love you. That's why I trust you. That's why I believe you. Because in this awful and hard and pervert world , you manage to remain a ray of sunshine , a rock for everyone who needs it. Your personality is too beautiful and perfect for this world. Your an angel send on Earth to pull us mortals from our misery."

Tears were silently falling form both Kay's and Cian's eyes. Kay didn't say a word , she just got up and brought Cian's face close to her's. They both had red eyes because of crying. Both were trying to catch their breath. Kay brought they have even closer till they lips touch. They started kissing. It wasn't passionate or fast. No. Their kisses were sincere and intimate. Tears kept falling down their cheeks and reaching their lips.

When they parted away to take a breath , they both whispered at the same time three beautiful words. "I love you."

[theredquilt]

here is clips of Rhett talking to Barbara after agreeing that talking to dogs as if they’re people is bad 👍

[punkrockmixtapes]

Tiny Voices - Luna Lonely

[makyoo]

Faults. Faults. Faults

[thesoupbunny]

[depravednotdeprived]

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