#tmuw

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

Waking up your neighbours downstairs I've been inside this bedroom a thousand years and as you tie me to the bed for good I say

that I want you in the most unromantic ways

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

dude. Dude. i been thinking about tmuw

took me four tries to type that into the search bar right. Anyway.

"show me what you are i am desperate to know / nobody better than the perfect enemy"

you take what you want and leave??? haugh

Man I should just add their whole discography to that fucking playlist atp. I can't take this.

“well, i know what you want from me / you want someone to be / your reflection, your bitter deception / setting you free”

I CAN'T TAKE THIS

TELL ME YOU GUESSED MY FUTURE AND IT MAPPED ONTO YOUR FANTASY. KILL ME NOW.

Orpheus go to sleep it's half twelve my eyes are literally closing of their own volition

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

Maybe if I listen to jaws by sleep token over and over the fic will spawn in my doc

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

What do you mean I have work I should literally be writing my aaronriko tragic soulmate au

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

tmuw aaronriko........ to me......... is it crazy if i say riko pov?

Riko pov...............I feel faint

He wants to fix Aaron he wants to be his everything he hates that he's so obsessed but he hates even more than Aaron isn't (or—that Aaron doesn't appear to be) AND PERHAPS. DEEP DOWN. MORE THAN ANYTHING. HE WANTS THEM TO BE NORMAL.

He wants them to do normal things that normal couples do, he wants them to hold each other and comfort each other and kiss fondly and trust each other he wants Aaron to want to tell him everything about himself but he doesn't know that he wants any of this and he sure as hell doesn't know how to get it so he settles for hitting and lying and fucking and abusing. Things he has been taught. Things he knows. What I'm trying to say is Riko just wants affection but he doesn't even know what that is. He's never touched it in his life. HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND. So I ask you, Orpheus, are you crazy or am I?

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

Ok but why am I about to cry

[Image Description: text that reads ‘Then, he thinks of Riko's hands. They must be calloused, too, and strong. But Riko is more slender than Aaron, and he decides that his hands will probably reflect that. He wonders if they're gentle. If Riko can be delicate when he wants to be. Does he ever want to be?’ End ID]

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

reading my own fic like this is too tender they need to hate each other more

[blondeandfivefeeteven]

Should be asleep rn but instead I’m up wondering how Aaron takes his coffee