drunk nights (a joshler fic brought to you by the sin twins™)
Josh went home with the boy he just met, not knowing what he got himself into. This was probably one of the most horrifying nights he ever had.. but then another new person stepped into his life, showing him that not everyone just sees the bad in other people.
rating: okay (warning: contains sexual abuse)
wordcount: 4023
a collab with @fanficsandideas
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Josh stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist. As Josh likes really hot showers, his mirror was totally steamed up. He reached out to it with his hand, wiping it clean with his palm. He opened the drawer underneath his sink looking for his hairdryer, which was buried underneath a shit ton of cosmetic products from his roommate Liz. He quickly dried his hair and stepped out of the bathroom. He shivered as he entered the hall. "Shit, I left the windows open again. No wonder I'm freezing like what not." He walked back to his room, digging his fingers into the towel so it wouldn't fall off. The yellow-haired guy already picked out his clothes earlier that night so he just had to slip them on. He turned around on his heels, watching himself in a full body mirror hanging on the wall. He was wearing a pair of black skinny jeans with a white tank, vans on his feet to complete the look. Liz was sneaking her way to his room and entered without knocking the door. "You look great, what jacket are you gonna wear?" Her compliment made Josh smile all over his face. "Thanks, I thought about just a casual one, probably the denim jacket I bought at the mall last week." Liz picked it from his clothing rack and helped him put it on. "Daaamn, I can tell the boys will be after you! Super cool!", this made Josh smile again. "Alright, guess I gotta go. See ya tomorrow." He gave her a quick hug before checking his pockets for his stuff and leaving the apartment. The club he chose was just around the corner. The security at the door already knew him, so no need for Josh to pull out his ID or anything. "I see, you again. Alone this time?", the man said. "Yeah, just really down for a good party, ya know?" They both laughed at this and Josh made his way through a knot of people standing at the entrance. It was already 2am, so the place was quiet crowded. He first went to the dancefloor because the DJ was playing one of his favourite tracks. He didn't know the name. That's the thing with electronic music, there's mostly no singing in it - just like classic - so it's hard to find out the name of it. Josh quickly found the rhythm of the beat, showing off his moves. He just knew he's a good dancer. After a few minutes someone joined him. It wasn't the scene you see in normal clubs. This was underground, no small groups standing in a circle shaking their hips to the latest charts. Underground means dark basements, loud techno music with a bass so strong, you can feel it through your whole body. Everyone is facing the DJ, it's like moths, all wanting to go near a strong light. That's the way Josh explains it, but he always pleads that you'll have to experience it for yourself, otherwise you won't understand what this is about. The guy was standing next to him, pounding his feet on the floor to the beat. Josh just glanced at him, then focused back on the DJ. He felt a hand on his shoulder and turned to the boy, just starring at him. He hated when someone broke his flow. "Hey, wanna go out for a cig?" Josh doesn't smoke but he just nodded, the guy was somehow fluttering him. He followed him outside. "I'm Brendon by the way.", he handed Josh a cigarette, "you smoke?" Josh shook his head. "Nice to meet you, I'm Josh, Josh who doesn't smoke tho." Brandon put the cig away, lighting his own after that. "No problem tho, I wish I would've never started doing it. You alone here?" Josh was mesmerized by his brown eyes. "Uhh, yeah. I sometimes go downtown on my own. I always meet new people here. Just like we just met." The brown-haired guy nodded his head in agreement. "Same, also came here alone tonight." He flicked his cig away. "Wanna grab some drinks and head back to the dancefloor?" "Sounds good.", Josh replied. Brendon ordered a water for his self, Josh went with a beer. There was a reason why his eyes mesmerized him, also there was a reason why he only drinks water and needed some fresh air - Drugs. Most people here take drugs, it's kind of a normal thing here. Josh never even thought about tripping on something, alcohol was enough to get him in the mood. He drank his beer in almost one go, leaving the empty bootle on the counter. "Wanna dance?" He gestured Brendon to the dancefloor. Josh checked his phone - 3:36am. Both of them danced, getting lost in sound. Josh was back in his own world, minding his own business. He already felt a bit drunk but it was just enough to keep him going. The taller boy placed one hand on Josh's ass, causing him to flinch. He peeked at Brendon, acting like he didn't notice what just happened, which made the other boy reach for Josh's hand, squeezing it. Josh turned to him, looking baffled. "I know you're not straight, the way you almost stared at me outside, you betrayed yourself there." Josh swallowed hard. "Yeah, you're right tho..", Josh paused and wiped his face before continuing, "so, what are you up to?" The brown-haired boy smirked. "We could go to my place, ya know. Have some fun together. I mean if you want to." Josh didn't think. He agreed. "Great, ready to go?" Josh followed him outside, he could feel the security's eyes on his back. "I already got us an uber." Josh nodded. He was cold. His clothes were soaked from his sweat and the night air wasn't making it any better. Their drive home showed up and they climbed in the backseat. "We'll be there in 5 minutes, we could've walked but it's cold so yeah." Josh almost told the other boy that his home wasn't even 2 minutes away from the club but he thought it'd be better to keep this a secret. No one talked during the car ride which made Josh uncomfortable. "Alright guys, reached your destination." Josh got out of the car, Brendon paid, leaving a big tip for the driver. "Have fun.", he heard him say before the door slammed. "Just don't be too loud, guess my roommate is asleep, don't want to wake him." Josh nodded and almost tiptoed after Brendon into his room. Without saying a word, Brendon lifted Josh up and let him fall down on the bed. Not really careful of him, I hit my ankle on the corner. - Josh thought. "Get out of your clothes, you can leave your shirt on if you want to.", Brendon had a sharp undertone in his voice. Josh slowly started to unbotton/unzip his jeans before stripping down his clothes. He was still lying down, watching the other boy almost ripping his shirt off. "Get on your knees you little cockslut." Josh's eyes widened at this, but he followed the instructions without hesitating. Brendon was already hard. "C'mon, you want this." Brendon grabbed Josh's head, mostly dragging it to his dick. "Open up, I wanna fuck your mouth." Josh was totally out of his comfort zone, he didn't know what to do. He opened his mouth, licking the top of Brendon's dick. The other boy was falling apart above him. He pressed his head down, causing Josh to choke, gasping for air. His head felt dizzy. Don't vomit, don't vomit, don't fucking vomit - Josh thought. His gagging just amused Brendon, but eventually he decided to let go of Josh's head. As soon as he was in control of his head again, he threw it back. His neck was audibly creaking. He took some short breaths, before inhaling so deep that his lungs hurt. Wham. The room went silent. Did he just slap me? Josh was on the wage of tears. "Who said you could fucking stop? Go BACK to WORK, NOW.", Brendon yelled. Josh was scared, doing what he was told. Tears formed in his inner eye corner, running down his cheeks one after another, but he continued what he was doing. "Alright, enough." Brendon grabbed Josh by his hair, pulling him off the floor and literally throwing him onto the bed. "Turn around, lemme see your hole. Bet you're ready for me." Josh laid down on his stomach, adjusting himself a little because he painfully laid on his own cock - which wasn't hard at all, not even near to getting hard. He didn't have much to be happy about, but the second Josh adjusted himself, Brendon slammed into him. Josh let out a small whimper. Brendon started himself painfully fast. "You dirty little cumdump. Shut up," Brendon said in a sharp tone. It took every inch of Josh not to scream in pain. Brendon grabbed the boy's highlighter-like hair and pulled on it tightly. Brendon literally started slamming into Josh, over and over again. As the taller guy let go of his head, Josh's chin smacked down on his upper chest, making it hard for him to breathe. Suddenly he felt a sharp pain on his back. Brendon was clawing his nails into the yellow-haired boy's skin. Scratching them up and down, over and over again, ripping deep red marks down his spine. He let out another whimper, tears were streaming down his cheeks. Brendon slowed down and smacked Josh's ass. "Slut." He whispers, and picks his speed back up. Brendon comes quickly, leaving Josh a total mess underneath him. He then pulls out and slowly goes down to Josh's cock. He kisses on the tip, giving Josh the chills. Brendon opens his mouth, leaving hot breaths on Josh's cock. He licks the base and sucks on the shaft. Josh let out a moan - which didn't mean he was pleased with the situation. Brendon quickly removed his mouth. "Hush, cumdump." Brendon said sourly, then put's Josh's cock in his mouth. He licks and sucks gingerly. Josh leaves deep scratches on Brendon's shoulders. "Bren-" Hey chokes out and comes. Brendon swallows and slides into the open spot of the bed. His finger traces up Josh's toned abs, and reaches his chin. "Just go to sleep. I'll be at work tomorrow." Brendon told him, pulling his hand back and drifting to sleep. Josh wasn't moving, he was scared. He cried without making any noise, totally exhausted. I want to die. I just want to die. Josh was overstrained, he felt used. Some time passed and Josh also drifted into a deep slumber.
Josh slowly woke up. He was naked, legs hanging off the bed. As he opened his eyes he noticed he didn't have a pillow, neither a blanket. The air was thick, you could've cut through it. Josh stroke his own arm, realising he was covered in what seemed like dried sweat and cum - and tears. He felt disgusting. He was struggling to get up. Thank god, Brendon wasn't there. He checked if he left any message. A small piece of paper was laying on the other side of the mattress. "I'm at work, won't be home 'til evening. Take your time leaving. - Brendon", Josh read. He let out a sigh, happy that his betrayer wasn't anywhere near him. He almost fell as he tried to get back up on his feet. He searched the room for his boxers and slipped them on. His head hurt, his lower body felt like someone just set it on fire, also he felt dizzy, really dizzy. He twisted his ankle as he stepped into the hallway. At this point, a lump formed inside his throat. I'm not going to cry, I won't. He mostly fell his way to the living room. His hand slipped as he tried to make hold of the doorframe, slamming his elbow against the wall. He couldn't take it anymore. He took two steps forward before breaking down. Tears were uncontrollably leaving his eyes, you could hear them hit the floor. Josh was sobbing, which turned into bawling within seconds. He was screaming at the top of his lungs. "I WANNA DIE, W-WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I'M SUCH A DUMBASS." You couldn't really understand what he was yelling through his crying. He heard footsteps, someone was running up to him. "NO, NO. L-LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE DON'T DO THIS TO ME AGAIN. I BEG YOU DON'T WRECK ME AGAIN." Josh totally collapsed.
Someone kneeled down next to him. "Shhh, it's okay. I'm not Brendon. Don't worry. I won't hurt you. Promise." Josh totally forgot about the roommate he was told about. "I-is it okay if I help you get up? Guess the floor isn't comfortable." Josh nodded. Brendon's roommate shuffled his hands under Josh's armpits and pulled him off the floor. The yellow-haired boy was shaking, his body was trembling. "Shhhh. I got you." The thin boy gathered all his strength and lifted Josh up into his arms. He walked up to the couch, slowly letting Josh down. "Is it okay if I sit next to you?" Josh cried out again, but the other boy still took this as an okay. "I'm Tyler .. and you're Josh, right? Well, I heard your name last night." Josh finally lifted his head up, looking straight into Tyler's eyes. "H-hey Tyler. T-t-thanks for helping m-me.", Josh muttered before he started to cry again. Tyler stopped asking questions, he could tell Josh wasn't able to actually talk. He carefully lifted Josh into his lap, arms wrapped around him. Tyler expected him to fight against it, but that didn't happen. Instead he felt the other boys arms around his waist just seconds later. Tyler gently rubbed Josh's back. "You don't have to talk about it. Brendon already made a scene out of it before he went to work. Also I heard all the disgusting and inappropriate things he said to you tonight. I couldn't get back to sleep after witnessing all of this. I waited for you to wake up, I needed to make sure you weren't left alone after this." He nuzzled his cheek at his cheek, noticing how sticky yet wet Josh's face was. "Hope it's okay for you to be held like this." Josh nodded. He was still whimpering, but the bawling and screaming stopped. Josh pressed his body against Tyler's, getting as near as possible to him. "You wanna drink something? Your voice sounds husky." "That'd be nice, I d-don't care what it is.", Josh said. "Okay, I'll be right back. The kitchen is over there, you will still see me. I'm still here." Tyler crawled out under Josh, patting his shoulder before leaving to the kitchen. He grabbed two glasses off the counter and filled them up with water. He walked back to Josh. "If you want to, I can help you. You're still shaking." Josh didn't say a word, he just looked back at Ty. He sat down next to him, one glass still in his hand. He slowly lead the glass to Josh's mouth, placing its edge on his lips. Still being totally careful, he lifted it so Josh could take a sip. He had a hard time swallowing his drink, he cringed after every sip he took. Josh tilted his head back, a sign that he had enough. A quiet thanks left his mouth. Some water was running down his chin, Tyler quickly wiped it down with his finger. "C-can we lay down? I don't feel good." Tyler settled himself down on the couch, gesturing for Josh to get into his arms, which he did. He started to sob again. "It's okay, you can cry as much as you need. I will stay here with you. I won't leave your side.", Tyler murmured into Josh's ear. Every inch of Josh's body was shivering. "Are you cold? Wait, I'll tuck you in." The boy reached out for a blanket and covered both of them with it, making sure Josh was completely underneath it. Josh adjusted his head so that it fitted right into the hollow of Ty's collarbones. "I'm so weak, I'll probably fall back asleep.", Josh mumbled, eyes already shut. "It doesn't matter, it's important that you get some rest. I'll be still here when you wake up, right next to you." Josh curled up against Tyler who squeezed his arms tighter around Josh in response. Tyler could feel his breaths on his collarbone, noticing they got longer and slower. Josh was slowly drifting away, peacefully falling back asleep. Tyler stroke his back to soothe him just a little bit more. He waited a few minutes before checking if he actually slept. "Josh?", he whispered. No answer. Hopefully he won't have a nightmare. I want him to be at peace. I just want him to be safe. - Tyler thought, before drifting away as well. Snuggled up against the boy he slowly started to fall in love with. The boy who would later become his kryptonite.
"CUMDUMP, I'M NOTHING MORE THAN A SLUT." Josh was screaming in his sleep. Tyler startled. "Josh, wake up. Wake up!", he tried to wake him but it didn't help. "Josh you seriously need to wake up, it's a nightmare!" Tyler was almost shouting at him now. The other boys body was trembling in his arms, it felt like he was having a seizure. Ty started to sob. "Josh, please please please wake up. My heart is aching at your state. Baby, please wake up." He just said what? Did I really say baby? Tyler shook his head in disbelieve. He noticed that he, too, was in tears. He stroke his fingers through the bright yellow hair, planting kisses on his forehead. He was begging for him to open his eyes. Finally, Josh did. Tyler tightened his arms around him. "It's okay, it's okay", Tyler was whimpering, "I'm here. Dear God, Josh. I was so scared. Look at me, please please look at me." Josh lifted his head so Tyler could look directly into his mocha eyes. "W-what happened?", his voice was so hoarse you could barely understand what he said. "You had a nightmare, it took me a while to wake you." Josh let his head sink onto Tyler's chest. "I'm so sorry, Ty. I feel like a human wreck." Tyler nodded at this, totally understanding. "Josh, can I ask you something?" This made him look back up. "Uhh, sure?", his voice was shaking. "You seem like you could need a shower, a warm bath would be even better. I mean, just so you could sit down. Standing for too long might be exhausting. Ehhrm, if you want to." Josh took a moment to think about it before opening his mouth. "W-would it be too much if I asked you for help?" Tyler blushed really hard. "I-I may help you." The thin boy got up and stood in front of Josh, reaching out with his hands so he could support him. "Okay, give me your hands, I'll help you. Take it easy." Josh laced fingers with Tyler's, slowly getting up. "You alright?", Ty said. Josh nodded. "Okay, just follow me." It took them a while to reach the bathroom but they made it without Josh collapsing again. Tyler opened the door and patted a stool standing in the corner. "You wanna sit here until the tub is filled?" Ty was still worried. "Yeah, thanks." Josh placed one hand on a towel rack for more support before sitting down. The other boy turned on the water, checking its temperature. "Uhh, I hope hot water is okay." Josh watched him before answering: "I like hot showers and such." Tyler nodded. He turned on the heater, placing a huge towel on top of it. They were in silence for one, maybe two minutes. "Guess you can already get in." He helped Josh to get over to the tub. "Uhm, you have to take your boxers off.", Tyler giggled. "Oh, damn you're right, I'll just--." Josh almost fell as he tried to strip his briefs down. "Heh, I'll see you naked anyways. You mind?" Josh shook his head. Tyler slowly pulled down Josh's underwear, always checking if it still was okay for him. "Alright, I'll help you." Josh had struggle raising his legs over the tub's edge but eventually he made it. He sat down in the warm water, which quickly made him feel a little better. "You wanna be alone? I can leave the door open a crack." Josh shook his head. "Can you stay here? I'm afraid I might faint." Tyler raised a brow at this, but sat down next to the tub. Josh settled down and closed his eyes, his hands were resting on his legs. "Take your time, it's only 1 pm, this asshole won't be home until 9." Josh nodded. "I slowly remember what exactly happened. Also, the pain I'm in speaks for itself", he started to stutter, "h-he didn't care if I was ready, he just .. just slammed his dick inside me. A-also I'm usually not a bottom. This is the first time ever that someone abused me. Like, I mean seriously abused me. I wanted him to stop but he didn't care. All he cared about was that he was having fun." Tyler didn't think, he reached out for Josh's hands, lacing their fingers together, stroking the back of Josh hands with his thumb. "I know, I heard what he said to you." Other than you may expect Josh squeezed Tyler's hand in response. "I'll help you with your back", Tyler said and reached out for a washcloth. Josh bent forward for easier access. The brown-haired boy was terrified as he saw what Brendon left on the other's back. Deep red marks, this weren't just scratches anymore, they looked like cuts. Tyler was tongue-tied. He laid one hand down on Josh's shoulder, wetting the cloth with his other. He brought the cloth back up, squeezing it. The water was running down Josh's spine. As soon as the water made contact with one of his wounds, he winced in pain. "Ouch, ouuuch. Ty, what is it? It burns like hell." Tyler swallowed hard. "Believe me, you don't want to see this. Clench your teeth for a sec. These need to be clean, guess you don't want them to become infected." Josh shook his head, closed his eyes and clenched his teeth, he could feel the pressure through his whole jaw. Tyler repeated the process one more time before letting go of him. "Sorry, didn't want to hurt you." - "It's alright, I mean this isn't your fault." Tyler proceeded to help the other boy clean himself, then helped him out of the tub. He quickly grabbed the towel, wrapping Josh in it. "I'll be right back, I got some clean clothes for you." Ty left the room, dashing to his room. He picked a pair of sweatpants and a shirt, then returned. "Hope this will fit you." Josh already dried hisself. He slipped on what Ty brought him. "You look good in my stuff tho.", Tyler laughed. "Thanks man." They left the bathroom, making their way back into the living room. "Soo, you wanna do something together? We could play video games." Josh's eyes lightened up at this idea and he shook his head in excitement. "Knew you were done for this." They sat back down on the sofa, Tyler set up his Wii, handing Josh a controller. "Hope Mario Kart is okay for you." "Totally, I love it.", Josh responded in a happy tone. They played a few games together. "Would you mind staying the night? I mean with me, not with Brendon. He doesn't deserve you." Josh looked back at his new friend. "No, wouldn't mind. I'd love to stay over, here with you." They both nodded at each other before concentrating back on the game.
