#toxicteacups

[ofwondersandhares]

[ofwondersandhares]

He's everything I hate.  He's everything that... I'm supposed to be against.   ---- But the only time that I ever feel anything is when...

                          Why can't I stop?  Why do I keep letting him in?

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This with you, it’s wrong. I know it. I’m not a complete idiot.  

@notquiteahitman

[ofwondersandhares]

[ofwondersandhares]

[ofwondersandhares]

A lot of feelings went into this video. It’s been a long time coming, a ship video for one of my favourite OTP pairings - a pairing that has literally taken years to develop. Their relationship has always shared a lot of strong similarities to Spike and Buffy’s relationship on Buffy The Vampire Slayer (similarities that weren’t intended, it just happened that way...)

The video is not the best quality because I used only gifs to make this video, but I still feel it turned out really well and I hope one of my favourite writing partners, @notquiteahitman enjoys it as much as I do. ❤️

[ofwondersandhares]

[ofwondersandhares]

[ofwondersandhares]

Continued from here.

@notquiteahitman​

Shay's own expression had changed them, eyebrows furrowing as she had given him a look that had spoken volumes.

”Do you really think I would say that I love you if I didn't?” But then, he had asked her a question that she should have expected from him, but oddly enough, she hadn't. A heavy sigh left Shay's lips. She could easily just say she didn't know, she wasn't usually the one that got all emotional the way, say, her brother did, but, this was the type of question that not only Breslin needed an answer to, but she did as well. She had needed to hear herself say it.

”It is a feeling inside of me. A pull towards you. I have spent years trying to fight it, trying to push it down so far that I forget about it, but it is more than a feeling, it is an energy, a need to be around you, to be a part of your life, to touch you, to feel you, to love you, even when I sometimes hate you. Every fucking day I think about you. Every fucking day I want to know what you are doing, what you are feeling, and if you are thinking about me too. Everything you have done to me, to my family, to my friends, I shouldn't love you. But I do. I do, and somehow, every part of me always comes back to you”

She didn't know if there was anything else she could say to him as she swallowed thickly, turning to head toward the door. ”I just wanted you to know that you have someone. Someone who loves you, with no strings attached. I know I told you once, that I don't want to change you. And I have stuck behind that, for the years we have played this game between us. I have not once begged you to change, I've never given you any ultimatums, I have never allowed myself to believe that you actually care about me, or held myself to a standard that I am somehow different from all the other flings or relationships you have had in your life.”

She knew at that moment, that she should have walked out that door, instead, she had closed the distance between them until she was within his reach. ”And this is where you tell me things are still that way, have always been that way, and will always be that way. This is who we are, and have always been. I am nobody to you, Breslin. I am just another woman in your life, nobody special, nobody important, just some girl you know, who is a bloody fool.”