my trans nigel colbie head canons bc i said so (and this is my hyper fixation atm)
- he used to kneel at the altar for hours wondering why God had to make him different from everyone else.
- he only wears pants because his knees eventually always had bruises on them from how long he’d kneel.
- nigel’s “family issues” were essentially due to his transition and the bullying he endured from his teachers, peers, and even his father. even though he was a top student, everyone thought it would good for a new start, where no one knew him or where he came from.
- he formed a relationship based on hate and envy with God, and refused to pray, or do anything is his name—which is why he’s never seen singing in the church, or in the church by himself.
- he pleaded for his father to stop calling him by his dead name. his mother eventually stopped, but still prayed at night for God to fix her “daughter.” his father still called him by his dead name, to the point that nigel stopped fighting, and just obliged to his father’s requests. (another reason he is never seen praying)
- sometimes says ‘our’ when talking about himself referring to him almost having two souls in way, he has a male mind yet female body. as much as he would like to leave his feminine identity behind, it will always be a part of him so he still acknowledges it. though when he says it and someone repeats it or asks who he’s referring to, nigel just gaslights them lowkey. “What are you talking about? I never said that.”
