i have realized something about myself that I'm hoping that maybe other people can relate to! i couldn't find a term that comfortably described this experience, so i made one myself. it's what I've seen people call a modal quality. Modal qualities are terms like transfeminine, transmasculine, and transneutral! (i don't know tons about them, so go to other sources if ya wanna learn more)
the word I've come up with is transweird, the definition being "an umbrella term for people who are transitioning or who wish to transition in a direction that can't be comfortably classified as transfeminine, transmasculine, transneutral, or transxenine." this is the way i make use of it when it comes to my own experiences, but it's intended to be a very broad term in the way that words like transfem and transmasc are very broad terms. anyone can use it as it's not exclusive to any group and you can even use it if you're not intending to transition, but relate to it for some other reason. basically, do what ya want with this term, i'm not the gender police.
one of the main reasons i made this term is because while transneutral technically fits my experiences in a way, the word 'neutral' in it makes me uncomfortable due to the fact that the way i wanna transition is way more mixed than neutral. this also fits the transneutral term due to it being a very broad term, but i'd rather not use it.
the term transweird is likely used to mean other things, but that's okay. words can have multiple meanings and i don't intend to step on any toes.
