if i could go back to source and change one thing and get away with it, it would be putting a bullet in every one of our goddamn fathers. k's and mine, especially, cause FUCK. we all could have been so much happier. i miss all of you. i miss the late nights and the parties and racing together, i miss holding my friends close and keeping everyone else at arms length. my pack was all that mattered to me. *you* were all that mattered, skov. and i fucked up. and i love you. and i miss you. i wish i could have been the man you deserved. i will be sorry lifetime after goddamn lifetime that i wasnt. i hope i get to see you again someday but im so scared to hurt you again. im better here than i was there, but the thought of ever upsetting or hurting you again is literally mentally unbearable for me. come find me, skov. you too jiang. we miss the fuck out of both of your dumb asses. -swan, trc