#tree crush

[aviofavalon]

i post that gay shit and right after they send me a selfie

excuse me mx can you fucking stop being so goddamn cute for maybe like five minutes

[aviofavalon]

i think i overcomplicate it sometimes

because i just very simply love you

completely

the way i can't breathe when you speak passionately and all i can do is tell you how breathtaking you are

while in the back of my mind a voice shudders,

do they know, do they know? surely they MUST know, you're making it so obvious. they have to know.

and meanwhile i don't care. what matters is i tell them i love them, i'm happu i know them, all i can fully think about is how much i care about them.

i'm in love with you, my lips say, as i type out responses. i'm in love with you, my lips say, as you gush and rant. i'm in love with you, i feel longing in my heart

it's really as simple as that

[aviofavalon]

i guess deep down i just can't stop myself from hoping that maybe they like me, too.

[aviofavalon]

why did i have to fall in love with my best friend

i give them small clues to my feelings, the kind that would be easy for them to miss, almost like i make sure they do

i wish i could tell them and kiss them and hold their hand and keep them close and safe

but it would be best if i just wait out the storm that is my feelings

so that i can be a good best friend

and not yearn for them the way i do

[aviofavalon]

they're--

beautiful and

i break my own heart every night

yearning for them

though i know they don't see me that way

it's fine it's fine it's fine

they're just slightly young and i

need to stop

pining

i need to stop

doing this to myself

i need to stop wondering how nice it would feel to get to hold their hand

maybe if i write them poetry every night

maybe if i confess to the moon about them every night

maybe one time will be just enough

and it wont hurt anymore

and i will be over it

and i can go back to being a good friend

who isn't in love

with their best friend

[aviofavalon]

i don't even finish my sentence before you grab me in a hug

apologize

and it surprises me but

i can't help thinking

please don't let go of me ever

i'll always forgive you for taking your time

just

don't be quick to let me go

please

[aviofavalon]

welp

it's been a while since i have hung out w the best friend i am in love with but before when i had my little crises bein qround them would calm my brain down and i would forget everything else

tonight we were at a show and while my brain did calm down i Did Not Forget

who knows how long i am gonna have to be in love w them beforw i get over it lmao jesus

[aviofavalon]

you send me silly pictures and videos and my heart just swells knowing that you're you

you're so fucking pretty

i love you so fucking much

you're so beautiful it makes me ache and yearn

your lips look so sweet even when making silly faces - i wanna feel for myself

my heart hurts and i wonder when i'll be over this