#trigger warning: derma

[fiftyeightminutes]

that dermatillomania feel when there is a spot that your brain is like PICK ME PICK ME PICK AT MEEE PLEASESEEE

and you are trying to do work and actively ignore the intrusive thoughts but you can only use half your brain for your work because the other half is fighting off the part of you that wants to JUST FUCKING PICK AT THE BUMP ON YOUR SKIN GKDFGJNDGL

[fiftyeightminutes]

me: maybe my legs would hurt less if i stopped picking at them

derma: *already picking at my legs* hmm, interesting thought.

[fiftyeightminutes]

that derma feel when you pick at the skin on the bottom of your feet and have to pretend the next day that it doesn’t hurt to walk

[fiftyeightminutes]

that derma feel when you forget you have a scab you’ve accidentally kept picking at on your scalp, and then you wash your hair and it hurts like a bitch.

[fiftyeightminutes]

The Derma Life (tw: skin picking, tw: dermatillomania, general warning for grossness and pimples)

The Disorder: Look at that pimple on your leg.

Me: Yeah, I popped it yesterday.

The Disorder: It's still there.

Me: It's healing.

The Disorder: You should try popping it again.

Me: Why? Won't it take longer to heal if-

The Disorder: You gotta.

[agenttexsflippedshit]

and wow there's a spot on my arm that I started picking at for some godawful reason and it hurts and bleeds too much and god if my dad sees it he'll just start bitching at me and I don't know what to say because I didn't mean to pick at it it just happened

[agenttexsflippedshit]

tw: derma/picking/blood

stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking stop picking 

why are you picking

stop

stop

stop 

picking

you

useless

piece

of

shit

you

are

not

making

things

better

for

yourself

so 

just

fucking

s

t

o

p

there

is

just

so

much

b

l

o

o

d

and

i can't

stop it

[agenttexsflippedshit]

[trigger warning: derma]

my nails have blood all over them and my leg is bleeding but i can surf tumblr now without it making me cry and lose my shit