can someone write me neuroatypical pete, please?
like pete who hates going to therapy and argues with patrick via text over why he shouldn’t have to go. pete that gets med changes and has to deal with crappy side effects. pete that has trouble getting his meds forwarded everywhere and runs out on tour and feels like crap until they get refilled. pete with insomnia and paranoia that makes him worry that he’s literally dying. pete with panic attacks so bad that he goes catatonic. pete trying his best to act like he’s excited when he mostly just feels nervous and wants people to ignore him. pete worrying that everyone’s ignoring him because people secretly hate him or something that he knows is ridiculous but he can’t help it. pete having people tell him to snap out of it, or cheer up, or “at least pretend you want to be here, please”. pete feeling so absolutely crushingly depressed but not knowing why and not being able to explain it, but it just HURTS. and pete feeling manic rage and flipping out and then hating himself after he goes off on someone. and pete feeling tired of people coddling him for being mentally ill and treating him like he’s a ridiculous drama queen for no reason.
okay. he’s bipolar and i want everyone to acknowledge that bipolar is not a casual part of someone’s life. please.
