#turltejournal

[squishyturtlee]

Day 176 of 365

I feel like the pressure is officially on. I can't fuck this up because I'm representing much more than myself at this point.. it's what I fear the most. I remind myself every minute that people believe in me so much I need to start believing in myself in the same way.

On another note, I truly believe people who've done you wrong sense when you're happy and wanna pop back up. No honey, go fuck someone elses life up. #swerve I have finally understood that I have no time for people that bring negativity, sadness and heartbreak into my life.

[squishyturtlee]

Day 165 & 166 of 365

Laaawd have mercy. That's all I got to sayyyyy! I've been re-prioritizing aspects of my life.. can I let that go? Hmm...

[squishyturtlee]

Day 164 of 365

I spent my whole day watching the World Cup and Kings Game. My TV got yelled at too much today.

Bottom line, today was a good day!

[squishyturtlee]

Day 159 of 365

Here’s my question. Has anyone ever made you feel uncomfortable about being who you are? Do you find yourself feeling like you have to conform or adjust who you are in order to cater to the comfortability of friends, family, bf, gfs? Why have you allowed people, things and situations to make you conform to who they want you to be… you may not have the answer. Why have you allowed people to make you feel uncomfortable about being who you are? For those of y’all that find yourself going to sleep at night but you’re not resting because your life while you’re awake is a nightmare, so as you close your eyes at night the nightmare continues into your dream… self love is the cure to self hate.

[squishyturtlee]

Day 158/159 of 365

(i m) p e r f e c t

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Day 156 of 365

It's National Doughnut Day and if that doesn't make you happy then you are living life wrong my friend.

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Day 154 of 365

It's like screaming and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless. Like nothing can save you. And when it's over and it's gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good. 

[squishyturtlee]

Day 146 of 365

I think I got sicker. I feel like complete poop.

*starts crying*