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You saved my life too.

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infinity times infinity…

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i hate this. I HATE THIS. I FUCKING HATE THIS!!! Right when the room is settled and quiet, he looks around making sure nothing else can fall and hurt her. That’s his first priority. And when he turns around to check back on her he expects her to be awake BUT SHE’S NOT. And when he sees her lieing there unconscious, he freezes in place. It doesn’t actually process through him until a couple seconds later when he starts holding her head and begging her the wake up. HE WAS THE FIRST ONE TO SEE LYDIA PRACTICALLY DEAD. I’M NOT A MESS… I’m NOT a mess.. I’m not a mess…. i’m not a mess… im not aa messssskdjdnd

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Holding your hand is a promise. That just for a moment, we won’t have to face this world all alone. (5x14-5x20)

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Lydia: Hey Stiles! Want to have sex?

Stiles: We can't, it's too dangerous.

Lydia: Wait, why?

Stiles: Haven't you heard of all the sexually transmitted diseases we could catch? There's Chlamydia, Herpes, HIV, Hepatitis B-

Lydia: Stiles, please shut up and let me have sex with you.

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I'm listening to Turning page again and I'm getting so emotional... especially this part: "I surrender who I've been for who you are. For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart." This is making me think of how Stiles has this idea formed in his head that he's some kind of heartless monster. Since he's killed people before under the possession of an evil spirit, it still hurt him the same way as if he killed those people himself. Or it hurt even more because he had no control over what he was doing and who he was killing, but saw it all in the first person perspective doing it. Then he killed Donovan, accidently but felt good about it. That was the worst part of it all for him, that's where he started feeling out of character. Ever since that event he's kept the whole solving mystery down low. He barely shared his ideas for clues with his father anymore, he's being "uncharacteristically quiet", it's almost like he was beginning to lose the Stiles within him. But when he realized they needed to come up with a rescue plan to save Lydia out of Eichen, or else she would literally die... that ignited some kind of spark within him. She's the one person who brought him back from his negative state of mind, and she wasn't physically with him too. In a way it was like she opened up his eyes; revealing the real him, the person who saves lives and doesn't take them. After that, he was back to his clever positive self. Stiles started coming up with what he thought was a brilliant plan to save Lydia. He started getting really spastic and talkative again. He ran through the plan with the pack, explaining everything in depth and detail, and feeling confident enough that it might actually work. Then he actually went in there for real, but the plan turned to shit. And even after the painful struggle, he managed to find her and save her. The way she looked at him in the jeep, like she was lost of hope only made him restore her fate by saying one thing "You're gonna make it." This was the real Stiles, the one who kept hope and faith. And when he brought her back to life, and he held her small hands in his. He realized that now she has restored his fate. His fate of becoming a monster, and a killer. "Stiles saved me." Those words felt like they were spoken by an Angel to him. She was so soft and gentle in that moment, and her smile took him by words. Because of her fragile heart, he saved someone's life. He redeemed himself and she helped him do that. Her heart made him strong again.

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Do I even have to explain what this looks like??