#tw triggerwarning

[draculas-fem-aro-husbando]

74 what is a random but interesting fact about you?

1.I love medical history and blood does not bother me much but for some reason vomit bothers me.Thanks for the ask and the asks you are sending me I love answering these:)

@miraculous-mermaid03

[ratherdead--thanfat]

Lol I was dreading going downstairs to get water because I thought my uncle would try to get me to eat dinner (I’ve eaten too much today). I even brushed my teeth to have a good excuse to say no. But his parents are over so I don’t have to lie my way around that. Hopefully I can do better tomorrow. Fuck this ED x{ 

[lookinlikeaking]

i had a dream recently warning this gets very graphic and dark very fast

so a game was released on the nintendo 3ds for download only. it was a new digimon game and for a pretty cheap price basically it was a tomogatchi ish digimon thing. except everyone got their own digimon and all of them were completely unique in some way. not to mention they responded to how you treated them so personally (you used the cam and stuff to vid chat with them and they recognized your face and other faces etc.) it was almost like they were real digimon (spoiler alert they are)

well turns out the game was a link to the digimon world and it caught on and spread like wildfire. everyone had their own digimon but with so many tiny hole punches through the two universes suddenly bigger holes started being made

digimon could pass through to our world, but they always got infected with viruses and forgot who they were. the only cure for this was if they had a strong bond with their human, enough they’d make some sort of sacrifice for them. this turned into a lot of digimon busting thrugh, getting infected and losing their minds, and then murdering people and causing damage and stuff. leveling cities kinda shit

they tried to pull the game but the connection between the two worlds was already too strong. wild digimon would get through and cause havock, and the only way to stop them were the trainers who had a strong enough bond with their digimon that theirs could make it through without being harmed. then the usual digimon fight one gets taken out returned to it’s digital code

and at this point the dream gets fuzzy i remember a few other things

if the human got distracted, hurt, or killed, the digimon would act appropriately. they were connected. one case a kid zoned out in the middle of a fight and so did her digimon. she then got stabbed to death and her digimon went wild and infected

the digimon who wanted to pass through safely would have to do some kind of sacrifice. the level of it depended on the level of the digimon. lesser digimon just had to humiliate themselves, something that would be laughed at or cause them temporary issues, but nothing long term. a mega digimon i got to witness had to cut off half of his face and sing a song about how glad he was for being a loser while doing a dance on one leg.

there’s arenas built because it was admitted there’d be stupid people whod want to fight and challenge each other. anyone can use the arena for free as long as they don’t take it outside of the arena

at some point i was dropped into the digital world. i rememeber endless sand and the smell of blood, before i threw up something black and sludge like. then i woke up.

[ratherdead--thanfat]

Done

I want to be skinny.

I want to have muscles and be toned.

I don’t want an eating disorder.

I don’t want my disordered eating habits to control me. 

I want to have power over my own damn brain. 

I wish it was easier. Why am I so fucked? I’m so tired of living like this. 

[universetripppies]

I'm honestly so pissed off. I hate having bad days where all I want to do is peel my skin off because all I can think about is some stupid boy who did me wrong and the worst part is I don't even know why I can't get over something like this.

[neatorina]

Tonight I cut myself. But I did it for the last time. Im mailing my razor to that one person and im done. I am stronger than everyone and everything that has ever hurt me and I am done playing their games. I am me and I am nobody else. They cant take that away from me. I have made my choice. I am strong. I am stronger than this stupid piece of metal. I am stronger than them. I am me.