#tw-selfharm

[runzahoot]

my mom took all my nice big sharp friends from me now all i have are the small one from shavers. How do i got deep with just one swipe on them?????

[justacas]

Feeling kind of stupid for having emotions on someone I have never known and never will get to know but I do think it really hit me in a deep spot;

Warning: probably some suicidal talk and/or self harm talk..

Avicii is someone I've always loved as a musical artist. His music has always resonated with me in one way or another, and friends of mine in the past have even had songs we used to like.... How to put vibe with without sounding like a meme? Point is realizing and finding out how he really died (Google can tell you, I'm not going to spread that here) really gave me a perspective.

I didn't even know this guy and Ive been sobbing over him for the past two hours, listening to his songs. Absolutely pained that this guy had to take his own life because it was so stressful. It makes me feel horrible for ever contemplating anything. Putting someone through so much pain to relieve my own would never be worth it. Like... Ever.

And self harm ... That's not worth it either. Youre hurting yourself AND others around you. Its so unhealthy and like... I could be important to people. Me and you and everyone. . everyone has someone in their lives that thinks the world if them. Universe, even. And imagine your world or your universe being ripped away suddenly. Especially your world imploding itself, or something. The amount of pain yoid feel... I can't imagine it. Especially when I apply someone I really care about to it and I have to imagine the pain I'd feel? I'd never want to put someone else through that.

I'm sorry if I have ever contemplated anything in the past. Regardless of me being a pussy to do anything, the thought is still there. That's still just as bad. Seriously, talk to people. Keep yourself alive because goddammit, people want you around and the world wouldn't be the same without your stupidly adorable faces.

[fighting-tobethin]

Well that relapse felt great.

[sad-princess]

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fucji mg Christ I hate the world so much sometimes! I thought I was finally out of this hell hole place that I work only to be told I'm stuck here another week! Instead of spending time with nice people and friends I'll be spending the week crying and having panic attacks and having the strongest urges to start self harming again~~~

[barry-allen-is-a-lamp]

To hang beneath a blanket of stars.

Cáel hung from the thin metal bars, his perspective flipped. He always relied on the night sky to find himself when he felt lost. Sunken eyes craving sleep, tear-stained cheeks puffing up to bring in waves of poison. His cigarette clung between his trembling lips, slender fingers clasped around it every so often to remove excess ash. The weather was below zero, his heart seemingly colder.  His headphone cable swung freely with the wind, music idly playing as his mind swam in circles around his thoughts, like a pack of sharks closing in on it's prey. His heart was screaming, still fluttering from all of the pills he'd taken. The wind nipped at his bare torso where his t-shirt had followed gravity's instruction. His ribs like a xylophone, defined with an incline sharp enough to cut flesh. His pale wrists a map of purple and red, the moonlight giving them an eerie glow.

A light like a beam shot across the sky, Cáel didn't believe in magic but it was worth a shot. "I wish to be content with myself." His head began swimming, he needed to be upright before the world returned to a canvas of black behind puffy lids. He got down with a practised ease, his frail frame aching for the long walk ahead. Maybe, he thought looking to the lake lapping at it's shore, no one would miss him if he drowned tonight.

[unstablescribbles]

All I want to do is hit myself. With a book, against a wall, specifically my head. It's this deep urge and it feels almost painful to resist it. But I'm in public. So I suppose I shouldn't. It's a mix of exhaustion and anxiety and just uggh. Also I'm like 99% convinced everyone secretly hates so that's not helping

[chucklevoodoist]

Oh fuck... Oh fuck... Oh fuck... I messed up...

[im-abapical]

I'm so hungry but the thought of food makes me sick ugh 😪 Maybe it's the pills i don't know. Wish I could cut with it going unnoticed though , can't believe i have practice tomorrow 🙈 I wanna slice my skin up