I dreamt about her last night and it hurts me more and more that shes not here when I needed her the most she wasn’t there when I had my heart broken and I couldn’t function she wasn’t there I’m here all alone and she isn’t here but every time she needed me I was there when she was sick id walk in the freezing cold to buy her food and take care of her when she was feeling sad I’d come over and we’d talk for hours when she wanted to end it all id reassure her after all we went threw she still left telling me she never wanted to talk to me again and to forget about her I don’t know what I did and she won’t tell me all I know is that I’ve never been more sorry in my life I broke the one rule I had for myself never fall in love with someone you know you can’t have but I did I do love her and I miss her more then I miss my mental stability she was one of those people who could just smile and it would make you forget you were ever sad she was such a special person I don’t give up on the people I love she can hate me but I’ll always ask about her, think about her and love her I may never see her again… But if she were to hmu one day and needed me id be there in a heart beat.