#up days

[justanotherbipolarmum]

I love a hypo when I'm not causing trouble, I'm so productive.

[its--just--aimee]

Been in such a happy mood the last few days and I love it

[kawakona]

Over 1k words and NOW I am finally starting to cut that thing poor victim open :3

This will be fun<3

[stratification-of-thoughts]

I know, right?

[thatsjusthowisee-blog]

TALENT-Y-ISH YAY SHOWCASE YAY

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! FUCK YEAH!

Okay, so a little explanation is in place, so here goes:

I entered our school showcase thingy and I MADE IT THROUGH THE AUDITIONS AND NOW I AM HAAPPYYYYYY!

Also, a friend of mine, who is graduating this year, also got through. There were three girls who were covering and performing to a K3 song. (K3 being a Belgian girl-band of three singing and dancing girls, whose public mostly includes 6 year old girls.)

Yeah... I'm friends with them... Anyway, they kinda entered (I think) as a joke or, like, comic relief or whatever, but they didn't make it through...

The awesome part... There's this girl, and she wrote a song and it's beautiful especially the message and everything and she's a great singer and she also made it through, and I was at my usual Friday night musical course and she texted me I got through which means she cares and YAY YAY YAY I'm making even more friends (this sounds kinda pathetic, but I DONT CARE YAY YAY YAY!!!)

Even tho I felt like I totally made a fool of myself... NOT SO MUCH, I GUESS ;D

AAAAAAAHHH Definitely an up-day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thatsjusthowisee-blog]

I feel like...

I feel like I made a new friend today!

This really lifted my heart (and my mood)

I had already made a new friend, and now I made another :D

So there's this girl in school, and I've always kinda admired her, cuz she didn't give a fuck about what everybody said about her and yeah... Today she accompanied me on my way home, and we talked about how society sucks and forces us to blend in and about how we both love theater and want to do something creative and that others shouldn't force us to be anything we're not. We also talked about why people think I'm weird (which apparently got less... Not that I noticed as much :S) and she was really nice to me, in an awesome way, like she really gets me...

So now she's picking me up tomorrow morning and we'll go to school together and I couldn't help but be happy this afternoon ;D

In oppose to how I normally am depressed and sit and think about how my life sucks... and I mean A LOT... Mainly because I'm just insecure and get confronted about that ALL THE FUCKING TIME... and now I kinda just felt I was being accepted for who I am, and not judged on how people think I am supposed to be... (Even tho people still think I'm weird, just because of the people I hang out with, or the way I sometimes act in public, which mainly is because I'm a social wreck and make up for that by acting how my friends would act in such a sitch... Which is hysterically waving my arms and saying syllables like bla and urgg and mèèh... I feel like I am not even myself anymore (this sounds bad... and kinda worrisome , but I am kinda turning into my friends or the people I (sometimes) spend time with when I have to do stuff in public... I.E. I have this friend who says "Like" a lot, and when this English man asked me how to buy a ticket for the tram and I had to reply in English, I kept saying "Like" between every other two or three words... I also, when people make wrong assumptions about mental disorders (I have a bipolar friend, who ranted about everything I said wrong), start to rant about how wrong they are and that Schizophrenia and MPD are two different things and that Schizophrenia means hallucinations (and much more) and that MPD means that you have multiple personalities (hence the term Multiple Personality Disorder)

This has me worried a bit, but (sort of) making a new friend... It feels nice :D

Today was definitely better than them usual down days...

Preparing for tomorrow, cuz it's gonna be an entire day about our school trip to Rome... Not looking forward... I would if I had some friends who were actually GUYS... Then I'd have some guys to share a room with, but of course, because I only have female friends... Well, you can fill in the dots, I guess...

Hope some REAL FRIENDS will make it less... well, less horrifying... Hoping for another "up day", like today...