zeroing in on the toxic yuri potential of ludmilla x marya. your beloved older mentor who let you go forward in your overconfidence that led you to lost in a foreign world beset by perpetual trauma. you can't go home, and it has to be someone's fault and it can't be yours. so it must be hers. and you hate and loathe, and suddenly your former admiration twists with your betrayed hatred. and it's been so many years that you've seen her, and you've been so corrupted by those years that all you can remember of her is that last folly and the grief tied to it.
and now your beloved mentor is back and she's willing to submit to anything that would ease the harm of what she's done. how do you resolve that with what the memory of her has become in your head? she lived only to find revenge for your life, and is haunted by it as much as you have!! it's the punishment you've dreamed of for hundreds of years!! but it's still hollow because you were not the person to push her to that state.
anyway i think they should fuck it out
