#varian writes

[varmilkt3a]

My fanfic became canon before I even finished

[varian-the-unstable-alchemist]

"I feel sick.

How much I enjoyed it...

Killing him.

I want to say that I hated it. That the very concept of killing yet another person appalled me, but... It didn't.

I've been trying to learn not to lie, to myself and to others. So I won't.

I enjoyed it.

I enjoyed every moment of it.

The crack of his skull beneath my shoe was one of the most satisfying things I have ever experienced, knowing that I finally, finally, was able to watch him die by my hand.

It's strange, I...

I don't think I'm afraid of him anymore.

After all that, the fear just... bled away, if you'd pardon the pun. I saw him at his worst, when I was completely and utterly powerless to him, forced to submit, forced to obey.

There is nothing he hasn't taken from me.

I have no fear left to give him.

So now, all that's left is anger.

But it doesn't matter anyway.

He's dead.

And Im glad that it was because of me this time."

[varmilkt3a]

In case anyone is wondering how my clois fanfic is going

It's definitely going

I promise that I'm writing an actual thing, I'm just bad at writing and I leave dumb notes in different drafts

I want to get these done, but I also want to make it feel canon

So it's going to take me a VERY long time

At the same time, as episodes come out I've been seeing certain things that I've already written becoming canon

And nobody will believe me because I'm not showing anyone the full progress of my fic because I don't think it's good

Also

Taxes

I can't show those around

That's what my patreon will be once I put this into comic form

[varmilkt3a]

I HAD A THING GOING IN MY

Tax

WRITING AND THIS WHOLE EPISODE 5 REACTION IS PISSING ME OFF

I should have just made this a separate post and I kinda wish I could show how I go straight back to writing

Tax

But I cannot show

Leave Lois aloooooooone

[varmilkt3a]

My Clois fanfiction/comic script rough draft is for sure rough

It's like having a nice little journal where everything is pain

You can tell that I've never written a fanfic before

I censored the boring tax stuff

That's why there's rectangles

[varmilkt3a]

Sorry for the lack of fanart I've been writing this crap

I just ramble under the cut

I have the tax stuff mostly figured out, but I need to really think about how Lois and Clark would

Pay taxes

In the sky

Where nobody will see them

I don't really have a reference for something like that

Besides comic panels

And they don't show

Taxes

And yes I've been updating this according to episodes as they release and the newest episode helped a TON

I'm keeping openly aroace Jimmy the whole way though

If he gets into a canon relationship then it's a QPR in my heart

Maybe you could say that him being aroace is too "on the nose" is that the right term I'm stupid I don't know but I'm a bisexual who constantly talks about it online so I'm pulling from that

What if I'm unrealistic because I kin Varian though

Stuff to think about

ALSO I AM NOT ASKING FOR SKY TAX REFERENCES I PROMISE I CAN POWER THROUGH THIS ON MY OWN

Unrelated little thing here buuuuuuuut

I watched Smile for the first time

Oh my god excellent horror film I relate to the main girl WAY too much

Soundtrack was awesome I'm so happy I finally watched it, I was really invested

If you haven't seen it I'll warn that it has gore and body horror and there is a cat and ablesim it's actually a strangely realistic hopeless situation

As a mentally ill person, I approve of the film's depiction of mental illness, but maybe others would disagree because of the hopelessness

[varmilkt3a]

I've added more Jimmy to the Clois comic script/fic thing

Jimmy doesn't care who the IRS sends though, he's not paying taxes

(I headcanon him as aroace, if he gets together with anyone in canon though then boom QPR)

I'm too scared to go over the rest of the fic that's actually about the Clois

Tax

So I'll be drawing Lois in the meantime

I'm also a very weak man after that Good Omens 2 finale because what the fuck

[varmilkt3a]

Writing clois fic

Fun

My sleel

Schedule is Meester hp

Messed ui

Up

My sibling almost outf me t9 our cousins togya

They brought up MAWSand made a fruiy jjokk

Not very nicely on the

I'm falling asneezs

My coiis tax five is looking oretyy8 good u think

Clark ans Liismmlllois are fun to write

Yheyee very. Sweet and I like applying the canon dynamic to

Tax

Atuggnyoubkno

It's a basic """ type of

Tax

It's still peewywu good though I think

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I have 2 other five and joyfully I'll have a impact on my own by the so I can drastically on it for ghe comic and so that my atyu sodesnt scare my sibling again :4

I'm seeing spirals eveyehwhre