Concept doodle from two years ago, when Vaska and I had been together for 3 years. Took me longer than usual to force a partner to make a clown character lol. He wanted his look to resemble Mr. Dark from "Something Wicked This Way Comes" as well as Lon Cheney's character from Laugh, Clown, Laugh. <3
I never knew a relationship could feel so easy, secure, loving or stable. He puts full effort into us and makes me feel worthwhile more than anyone ever, EVER has. I feel VALUABLE, for the first time in my life. He shows INTEREST in me??? like, what the hell?? It’s hard to accept love like this after so long of neglectful and selfish partners, I started to feel like that’s all I deserved. He makes it worth living to see 40 in this hellish timeline. His focus is on me 100% of the time and we communicate SO well, actual arguments almost never happen. He's responsible, mature, knows what he wants... and for some reason, that's me. I’m gonna marry the shit out of him.