#vivi rocks

[jay-and-dean]

I Miss Your :

Take care ❤

Hey Vivi !

I really miss you too ! I really want to start writing again but it's so busy all the time T_T

But I will, you're really amazing with all your messages ! <3

[roonyxx]

I only found this one 😭

https://deans-butthole.tumblr.com/post/630128877299220480/sam-winchester-sex-sounds-okay-this-is-not

Aaaah yes this one i found tooo, thank you! I will continue my search!

[jay-and-dean]

Hey, it's me again. I wanted to ask you another question other than Supernatural. SO ! Do you like musicals ?

I can't say I do.

I mean, like every people with a soul, I liked the classical Disney movies (The Lion King, Aladdin...) but each time I watch musicals, I feel so uneasy (I feel uneasy very easily). I can recognize the quality of it, but I'm like

during the whole movie. Maybe it is a matter of education, my parents never ever listened to anything musical related so I'm not used to it.

Even Tim Burton who I LOVE managed to lose me with Sweeny Todd (But Nightmare before Christmas is one of my favorite movies, but yeah, once again, not live-action.)

I think the only musical that didn't make me uncomfortable was Across the Universe, but it's the Beatles. Idk.

Do you like them ?

Thank you for your question ❤️

[jay-and-dean]

When I think of your fics, I feel like it's always happening at night. Because you always talk about pain or trauma or unrequited feelings, fears, nightmares, physical pain. There are always "dark" topics that you write magnificently.

But the truth is that, what I think you write even more beautifuly and perfectly is Love. The passionate, consumming, hurting, profound, beautiful, devoting, honest and healing love. It can be rough but it's always love. It's also can be so sweet and it shows how in love they are with each other. The complexity of it makes it incredible.

And this love, it heals the wounds you inflict on us, it erases the past and pain they went through, and it makes us envy them.

I can't stop saying how fan I am of you, Honey Bunny (yep, still trying to figure out what nickname to give you). You're an amazing talented writer who I admire very very much.

😘😘

Hey Vivi,

It is actually very interesting to know that you see my fics at night because of the darkness in it, and yes, you’re right, I guess I go down dark roads often, that’s all the paradox of my life.

Because, you know, my writing mind space is actually really sunny. Like blindingly light and crushingly hot. My life has had extremely dark, like pitch black despair, times, but my mind is super light. It always have been this way, even grewing up with regular trips to Hell, when I closed my eyes and dived in the secret garden in my head, I got sunburned. 

I think it comes through some of my fics sometimes, in steaminly hot ambiance, summer fairy lights, when Dean gets sunburn making love in Love me Once, when there are too hot, when they sweat, when they fight mosquitoes, in every aspects of Abe’s personnality in Don’t look down, Baby...

And when I talk about winter or cold or dark (like in Rescue You or Frozen sleep), it is always threatening to kill. Probably because I spend my life waiting for summer while trying to survive cold. 

It is what it is, my life have endless winter storms, and my safe secret garden is summery. My fics are mostly written while listening to summer songs (right now Ride by Lana del Rey).

I totally love to know you associate my writing with night.

It is the perfect representation of the complexity I want for my stories. I like death to bring calm and love to hurt, I love heat to burn and hunger to ground. And that is what I want for my stories : Dark shadows on a blue sky and summer sun in the middle of a cold night. (Dean Winchester is all of this, that is probably one of the reasons I love him so much.)

And what you said about Love... I just... I love Love. With all my heart. But real absolute complicated intense Love. Like @roonyxx says, I don’t do half, I can’t. If it is not full, if it is not a little too much, it doesn’t interest me, I get bored super easily and compromises depress me.

So I guess the mix of hell-like despair darkness, blinding summer sun and epic painfully strong Love is what you call complexity ; but it’s just how weird and complicated I am, lol.

Thank you so much for always giving me the priceless opportunity to share and talk about the stories I love to share. You’re incredibly awesome. 

[jay-and-dean]

Hola ! Dr.Dean and Nurse Eva are checking on you. How are you feeling, chou ?

Hola !

Not really good yet, my doctor (sadly not Dean, the old dude with a mustache) said my lungs are getting infected on top of covid. So now I start ABs and I have a note to not work at all this week and just sleep all the time.

I miss writing, I miss Tumblr and my friends but I can barely focus on anything, even watching a movie is complicated lol.

I'll be back very soon ! Take care of each others.

❤️❤️❤️

[jay-and-dean]

I don't know if you're still up for the asks but if you are : Hi 👋

If you could show one thing to Dean, what would it be ? I'm not talking about Love, Self-awareness or things like that. I'm talking about a place, a song, a movie, a country, a monument, something like that.

What would it be ?

Hehehe.

Seriously, I mostly want him to show me everything, take me on the road... Or maybe I would like to make him try french food ?

(You know me so well, knowing that if you hadn't specify, I would have say Love and all).

Thank you so much for the ask Vivi ! (they are always welcome !) ❤️

[jay-and-dean]

Did you watch the movie "Kaamelott" ? If yes, did you like it ?

I did !

I'm a huge fan of Kaamelott, so I went to watch it, and I liked it. I mean, many people were disappointed, maybe they were expecting more. I was expecting to laugh, and I laughed so it's good for me.

Which character is your favorite, me, with no hesitation :

So shoot if you want, about literally anything, fics, questions, wtf comments, tell me about your day, your country...

[jay-and-dean]

So ! You want some asks and talk and all ? Here I am :)

As I start this ask I don't know what I'm gonna say so I don't know how long it's going to be either ahah

Okay, first of all I'm sooooo excited to read the last chapter of Locked, I didn't have time to read it on Sunday (busy weekend lol) or yesterday but just so you know, I absolutely can't wait !!!

Also, your new series 'Highway To Hell' is soooo interesting, I don't know if you saw my comments and it's no problem if you didn't but since I'm here I wanted to tell you that I love how you write the topic of prostitution, the way you write the horrible situation Dean is in and how he feels and I'm soooo curious about the female character ! I always love your female characters, actually. I love that they aren't just some love interests, that they have a strong personality, badass and smart.

Anyway, while I'm here I also wanted to tell you that your fics are ones of the first I read and after reading all your stuff, I remember thinking "Wow... She writes so well and I love her ideas and I love the way she writes Dean. I admire her." And I just continued to read your stuff in secret over and over and I was excited when you posted something new and I loved your collab with @roonyxx so I started to read her stuff too and she's an incredible writer too ! Anyway, I quickly became a fan of someone I didn't know AT ALL ! Like, when I talked about your fics I couldn't even tell people what your real name was (until I stopped being an idiot and understood your username lol). But it wasn't important whether I knew your name, your nationality, your looks or not, I was a fan.

SO ! You need to know that, the fact you know I exist, that I've got the courage to DM you so I could post my fic (your writing kind of helped me improve my english and gave me some courage to try writing on my own) and you were very nice, the fact that you gave me a nickname and that we talked even a little bit makes me really really happy.... I don't know how to explain but I'm excited to hear about you, to read your stuff, to see your post appear on my dash because I'm a fan. But not a crazy one I swear ! I'm still amazed that I've got the courage to participate to your celebration and that you read my fic and liked it !! It's like if you loved a singer and when you sing your own song in front of them, they like it and say "Well done, kid."

So, I wanted to say thank you.

Thank you for writing your AMAZING stories ! For sharing them with us. Thank you for having wonderful, interesting ideas. Thank you for being nice and funny to talk to. Thank you for paying even a little bit of attention to me. Thank you for reading my rambling on my feedback and in your asks. Thank you for making me discover my hand kink ahah. Thank you for being the amazing, talented woman and writer you are. You're awesome, don't ever change or doubt yourself.

I send you Love 😘

Eva.

PS : told you it was going to be long, and I'm sure that once I'll press the button "send" I'll realize I wanted to add something else.

My (SO FUCKING) amazing Vivi,

I'll try to answer everything in order (love the gif).

Take your time for Locked, I really hope you like it as much as the rest. For Highway to Hell, thank you very much. I took some time to write the beginning, and then to post it. I knew the theme was going to be heavy, and I wanted to give it the attention and serious it deserves, without making it too triggering or insulting for people who live this kind of situations in way less lucky way.

It's such an honor that you started reading here with my fics, and it's incredibly flattering that you would want to talk about me to people. (We have the same nationality ! hehehe)

It's totally insane to have people tell "I'm a fan of you" like, wow, this makes me dizzy and blushing ! I mean, of course I answer you and of couuurse you can talk to me. The fact that I'm busy sometimes makes me a little slow at answering but I looove to interact. I'm a huge fan of you too. And I'm happy I could make you happy to interact because the person on this site that made me super nervous and fangirling never answered me when I started on this site (I'm not angry, she deleted her blog after so I guess she wasn't here anymore already).

Now, really you're welcome, and you don't have to thank me for reading your feedback, it's literally the reason why I write, or to thank me for acknowledging you, I'm not Maria Carrey lol.

For the handkink I'm sorry... not it's a lie.

All the LOVE

Jay

So shoot if you want, about literally anything, fics, questions, wtf comments, tell me about your day, your country...