Angst but has fluff at the end- I’m not too sure what counts as angst but it has sad emotions, so I think it counts.
Sum: You realise Natasha has never let you see her nude, you find out why
WK: 750-ish
A/N I don't like angst but @marvelwomenlove2 got me in a emotional loop, so idk here’s this:
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Lying awake stuck in thought, your mind wondered in and out, stupid things, sad things, sleep just didn’t want you. You closed your eyes and listened to the quiet breathing of Natasha and your heartbeats slowing to sync.
You're not sure why but it came to you at that moment that you had never once seen Natasha naked, sure she would take off her top or pants but never without something to cover herself, you wondered, why?
she had seen you vulnerable plenty of times, was she not comfortable with you? You shook your head knowing those thoughts spiral into dark places, Natasha would tell you if something bothered her right? Well that thought would have to wait until morning as your eyes were finally closing and sleep engulfed you.
When morning did come the question was still fresh in your mind but Natasha was already gone, she left early like always but you smiled seeing the note on your bedside table.
I’ll be back late- work, love you XX Nat.
You sighed deeply somewhat hoping she could secretly hear, nevertheless your day went on, breakfast, lunch and finally dinner all spent alone.
It was late, after 10 when Natasha’s car finally pulled up. You hated yourself for it but the question kept bugging you like some wasp, you waited until she came inside and went to change in your room, she would always close the door to change, it never bothered you before but tonight you had to know.
You strolled down the hall and opened the door;
“Hey! I'm getting changed” Nat yelled quick to cover up her bare chest, as you entered.
“I know Nat, that's something I've been meaning to ask you.” you closed the door behind not sure how to go about it.
“Why won’t you let me see you without clothes?...Is it me? Are you not comfortable with me?”
Her eyes grew wide like you dug up a part of her she was trying to keep buried.
“No. it's not you, I promise.” she said hastily
“Then why!” it came out louder than you intended. Almost as a shout, the emotion you built up all day came flooding out suddenly and you saw the way her face changed, guilt, fear, worry it was all an expression you couldn't make out. She was quiet for what felt like too long and you lowered your head.
“I’m sorry, you shouldn't have to tell me.”
“No,” she finally spoke, “you should know.” She seemed in that moment to let something go, a part of her perhaps she had been hanging onto, she didn't want to give it up but as things moved on that part got heavier weighing her down like a chain.
“It's me..my scars…you haven't seen them all and I’m..I’m afraid, afraid you wont like me the same if you see them.” It was then you first saw her vulnerable, open, human and hurt. The single tear she didn't hold back was evidence of her letting go, she broke the chain and now she needed you.
“Natasha.” you said cupping her cheek with your hand to meet her glazed eyes.
“I love you, more than anything. Your scars are a part of you, so how could I ever hate them? please don't be afraid I love you, every part.”
You held her close and wrapped in each other's embrace, it took awhile before she said anything again but you were grateful when she did.
“Thank you, and I'm sorry, I love you, so much.”
“Can I see them?” It was a question you were afraid to ask, what would she say?
Words never were her thing, instead she pulled away looking for a moment at nothing, unsure you assumed, she let go of her shirt and took off her pants.
The gentle light of your room illuminated her fears, the jagged and rough insecurities that littered her body like tattoos, you could help but smile; she was showing you what she hated, the part of her she wouldn’t let anyone else see.
“Can I touch them?” you asked your eyes meeting hers still unsure, she nodded stepping forwards.
Your fingers brushed her lightly and she flinched, you looked up at her again reassuring her with your eyes; she nodded and you moved gently over the skin, caressing every curve, wrinkle and scar. It made you wonder how she got each one, each mark had a story and that night when you asked she would tell you how each beautiful piece came to be a part of her.
“perfect” you whispered, placing a kiss on the coarse skin.
Sum: Getting caught in the rain, and the care that follows
A/N: It's been raining all day so this seemed fitting, I don’t like how this turned out so might delete later but currently cant be bothered.
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“Fuck,fuck,fuck” you muttered waddling to your house in search of warmth. The chances of rain were slim so you bet your luck leaving the house without a coat. A bet that would prove stupid when the sky opened almost mocking you with a storm.
You shivered your way home, and started to wonder if it was snow given how cold you felt. Your shorts and short sleeved t-shirt provided no protection from the rain whatsoever and you knew it wouldn't be long before you caught a cold.
Finally reaching the door to your shared house you saw the lights on inside and cursed yourself again preparing for Natasha to yell at you for not taking an umbrella. To your surprise the door swung open and Wanda wrapped you in her arms.
“WTF! y/n! Your freezing ``''Nat get a towel, she's practically ice!!” however cold and wet you were, it felt indescribably good wrapped in the soft arms of your worried girlfriend.
“Here” said Nat rushing round the corner and flinging a towel over you.
“I’m ok, really it's just a-” with that you sneezed all over Wanda, though she didn't seem to care and picked you up like a sick puppy, cradling you in her arms.
“y/n when you better i'm gonna say I told you so, but for now you need a hot bath and dry clothes.” Nat said flatly, you wanted to argue that it wasn't your fault and that the stupid weatherman is never right, but you couldn't deny how good a hot bath sounded and simply let Wanda carry you to the tub. You buried your head in her warm neck and listened to the annoyed grunts of Natasha playing around with the bath knobs, the water filled slowly and you found your eyes shutting in exhaustion. Wanda placed you gently on the floor and began undressing herself while Nat helped you out of your soggy clothes.
Wanda climbed in first testing the temperature and waving for Nat to hand you to her.
You sat between her legs, head resting on her chest while she picked up a cloth and started to wash you. Her touch was so gentle you simply closed your eyes and soaked up the warmth.
Nat said something about getting more towels and wandered off down the hall. Your eyelids closed and you swear you could hear sweet humming above you. You were in warm bliss you never wanted to leave and fell asleep with a smile.
When you woke up the warm flow of water around you was gone. You were dry but still warm, opening your eyes to see your girlfriends wrapped around you on the couch, and at least 7 blankets were piled over you, like a nest for a sick baby bird.
“When did…” you muttered, still half asleep only for Nat to pull you closer, kissing the crown of your head and whisper sweet things that made you blush.
The three of you lay there for the rest of the evening only getting up to drink some hot chocolate and put on a movie you would all fall asleep to, now warm and happy, maybe the storm was worth it after all.
Hello! :) sorry its been awhile but I've come to check in :3
How are you? did you finish your crocheting? <3
here I shall gift you a happy little frog ✨🐸✨
Hi I'm great!! No apology needed bae <3 I've been pretty good! Playing some new songs on my guitar and I've done about 3 batches that's around 30 squares so it's progress! AND THANK YOU IN RETURN I'LL GIFT YOU A PRETTY LADUBUG <33 🐞
My day was Ok thanks, I've been off sick today, so a lot of lying in bed and feeling sorry for myself, but I'm gonna make some tea now since I sound like a old man on his death bed haha.
Enjoy your nap!!<333
Pls don't we all, rn I'm on my bed crocheting with my dog and a book and listening to a podcast. Tell me that doesn't sound like the daily activities of an average grandma
I hope you get well soon and make sure to rest more <3
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-I'm confused on what you mean by finally know you exist, you have sooo many followers and anons who love you and send asks :3
Thanks for asking :) I'm ok I just have a MASSIVE essay to write today :(
but I'm very happy you would notice me! and can't wait :)
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I do have to think abt what to write though bc I don't really feel like writing anything in my wips just yet, so if you wanted to request, feel free to do so <3
