EJabby FanFiction by Wayne-Daniel Berard artwork by ClaudiaYvette
Part VIII: Mutual Exclusive
“She found him where?!” Eric said, bemused.
“In a monastery, of all places,” his mother smiled that knowing smile at him. “EJ had apparently survived the shooting and escaped from his father’s hospital in Europe. Abigail just . . . came upon him, apparently, in this monastery in Italy, and the rest, as they say, is . . .”
“Blasphemy!” said Eric, his eyes always ready to redden, “I can just imagine what they did in that sacred place!”
“Can you?” Marlena’s eyes narrowed, though her smile never wavered. “Are they the only couple you can imagine in that . . . situation?”
“Mom!” Eric answered, aghast. “What are you suggesting?!”
“I’m not suggesting anything,” Marlena said. “I’m stating it outright. You are a priest, no matter your -- what’s the term? ‘Canonical status’? A priest in love. With Nicole.”
Eric turned away and shook his head.
“Oh, please, my sweet boy, stop denying it. And stop fighting it! You are a priest, and you’re in love. And it’s time to bring the two together. EJ and Abigail aren’t the only ones who should find love in a sanctuary.”
“But they can’t be brought together!” Eric knit his brow and stiffened his neck and shoulders, as he always did when upset. “They’re mutually exclusive!”
“Are they?” asked Marlena, her almond eyes dancing more like a fairy godmother’s than a birth-mom’s.
Scene change: Apparently Eric Brady wasn’t the only one of strong opinion. Abigail is having a heated conversation with her mother and brother.
“Reeeealy, Honey?!” Jennifer was almost squealing her disapproval. Her skirt was too short for a woman of her . . . dignified years. And her multi-colored paisley blouse looked like it had come from the ready-room of the Mod Squad. “EJ Dimera?? You can’t be seeeerious!!”
“I’m very serious, Mom. I know all about EJ, know him better than anyone. And I love him. And he loves me. Look, I didn’t plan this, but the heart wants what the heart wants.”
“And not just the heart!” snuffled JJ derisively.
“What’s that supposed to mean?!!” Abigail turned on him, fury burning in her dark eyes. JJ stepped back visibly.
“Sweetie,” her mom stepped forward and nervously smoothed her daughter’s hair. “I think what your brother means is that it’s easy to confuse love with . . . other things. Now, we know EJ is charming and handsome . . .”
“And kind, and caring, and loyal and . . . fascinating!” Abigail was positively glowing as she spoke about him. “He makes me feel alive, Mom! He is my twin-soul, the one I was born to be with.”
“There is nothing ‘twin’ about you and EJ Dimera,” her mother laughed. “You are polar opposites.”
“Don’t be too sure, Mom,” Abigail held her ground. “When I spoke with Stefano, he said . . .”
“You SPOKE with that man?!!”
“Yes, Mom, I spoke with him; I stared him down, and I beat him at his own game. He said I was a granddaughter worthy of Alice Horton. And EJ is a husband worthy of me!”
“HUSBAND!!” Jennifer’s forehead nearly exploded through her tightly-pulled-back hair. “Absolutely not! No way!”
“Not your decision, Mom. He is the man I love. And the father of your grandchild.”
“Wha . . . ? What? Hold on!” stammered JJ. “Grandchild? But that would mean you’re . . .”
Abigail turned to her mom. “Not exactly MENSA material, is he?”
Just then the doorbell rang.
“That will be EJ,” Abigail said resolutely. “What’s it going to be, Mom? JJ?”
Scene change: Eric is sitting pensively by the side of what appears to be a Zen garden. Islands of smooth black stone rise peacefully from a sea of white pebbles, raked into swirls. A man enters the area; he is older than Eric and wears a herring bone suit jacket over a light grey clerical shirt and white collar. He sits next to the younger man.
“Serene, isn’t it?” he asks, in a slight Scotts accent.
“Yes, very,” Eric answers. “But oddly . . . challenging, as well. How does one reach those islands of calm? And look how separated they are, each from the other?”
“Are you forgetting that you can walk on this ‘water,’” the older man smiled. ”As long as you don’t mind disturbing the pattern.”
Eric shifted a little uncomfortably. “I’m surprised to see a Zen garden here?”
“In the foyer of an Episcopal church?” laughed the other. “I did my deacon year in Japan. And here at All Souls we’re a little . . . unique, but well within our tradition’s approach to things.” And he gestured to a plaque hanging over the entry to the nave: “I like to eavesdrop at all the gates to Paradise.” Hermann Hesse.
‘It’s good to see you, lad,” the man continued. “The Salem Interfaith Council misses you.”
“Preston, you know I’m no longer a priest?” Eric said.
“Actually, I know nothing of the sort,” smiled Preston Whittier, rector of All Souls Church.
“You sound like my mother,” Eric shrugged.
“A wise woman,” Preston continued. “Eric, in my experience, no one ‘becomes’ a priest. A priest is born, not made. He or she can choose to ignore who they are, but they can never truly change it.”
“But isn’t it a calling?” Eric asked.
“Yes, but a calling in the sense of a “naming”; one is called a priest because that is one’s soul-name, one’s deepest identity. Tell me, Eric, do you feel differently called these days? Is ‘priest’ still truly your soul-name?”
Eric stared at the floor. “I don’t know anymore.”
“Or perhaps you hear a different, though not necessarily opposite, name? In fact, they’re often quite synonymous, even here: ‘Father?’”
“I know you’re married, Preston. Jeanie is a wonderful woman, a true partner in your ministry. And your children, how old are they now?”
“Ginny is eight, and PJ is fourteen -- a teenager. Not easy being the child of a priest; you’re really in fishbowl. But then, you know all about those?
“Eric, we’ve worked together often. Do you think that my service as a priest is diminished by my being a father? Or husband? Do you see me as less than yourself?”
“Oh, no, no!” Eric stood up. “You’re a marvelous priest, Preston. Everyone in Salem knows that!”
“As are you, Eric. And everyone in Salem know that, as well. Thanks to Nicole’s exposé. How is Nicole, by the way?”
When Eric’ silence replied, Preston very wisely let it fill the room. Both men centered on the Zen garden before them, on the peaceful islands and the ‘walkable water.’
“I know several men, good priests, who have gone from my island to yours,” Preston said finally. “They found a harbor there, a further naming that they could not find here. And they were permitted to take their wives with them. I rejoiced with them at their fulfilment.”
Eric could have sworn he heard the pebbles crunch, but when he looked up, the pattern had still not changed.
“If they could go from this island to that, why not from that to this?” Preston asked.
“Leave the Church?” Eric asked, incredulously.
“Oh, not at all,” said the rector, reassuredly. “Do you know Toyohiko Kagawa? No? Not many in the States do, but he was one of the leading Christian figures in Japan. He had this one saying that I love: "I speak English very badly’ (which was not true) ‘and when I say 'denomination,' people think I'm saying 'damnation'; I don't really care because I don't think there's much difference!’” And the older man laughed heartily!
“Eric, the Kingdom is One, and has many mansions, as our Man himself said! Do you truly think they would be only a single gate? Besides our two damna – sorry, denominations, recognize each other’s ordinations; that’s why my friends were able to move so seamlessly to their new home.
“To me, my young friend, the real question isn’t, ‘What would I be leaving?’ but ‘Where am I being called? And what is my true name? The name God gave me and is still giving me?’ Everything else is commentary.”
“I just don’t know. I’m so lost, Father.”
“That’s because you’re trying to do it all yourself, Eric,” the rector nearly whispered, “trying to save yourself by yourself. Isn’t the entire message that we can’t do that, we can only be saved by each other?
“Who else is trying to save you, Eric? Find that person. And listen to her.”
Another scene change. Back at the Horton home, there is a very awkward silence as EJ and Abigail confront Jennifer and JJ.
“You!” Jennifer tried to snarl, but it came out more like a forced sneeze.
“I am Lazarus, come from the dead,” EJ beamed, then turned to Abigail. “T.S. Eliot,” he said in his best grinning stage whisper.
“Take your cultured charm and shove it!!” Jennifer glared. “I wish you had stayed dead!”
“MOM!” cried Abigail. “You don’t mean that!”
“Yes, I do, Honey. He’s not your poet in shining armor; he’s evil incarnate. And he’s about to snare my little girl.”
“Should I, after tea and cakes and ices, have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?” smiled EJ, still quoting.
“EJ, you’re not helping!” said Abigail. “Mom, EJ is far from perfect, but neither am I. Or you,” and looking at JJ, “and especially not you!” And then she leaned into her brother’s ear, “Your girlfriend’s mother talks to herself in public places,” she whispered.
JJ’s eyes popped three times their size, and he vaulted up the stairs toward his room.
“What DID you do to your brother?!” Jennifer demanded. “Has everyone gone insane?”
“For I have known them all already, known them all,” intoned EJ.
“Listen, Honey,” Jennifer did her best to ignore EJ’s presence. “Forget what happened. You were . . . seduced. Bewitched. Dimera’d. You’re not the first, Sweetie. Just come home. Put it all behind you. This is where you belong. With us.” She put her hands on Abigail’s shoulders. “The three of us can raise this baby -- together.”
“When I am pinned and wriggling one the wall, then how should I begin?” EJ went on.
“No, Mom,” and Abigail pushed her mother’s arms away. “This baby is not the only thing of EJ growing inside of me.” And she turned to him, her eyes just inches from his. “His face . . . has become my heart. He is the very life I live, and I know I am his. We are one.”
EJ gently placed a finger to her cheek, then looked past her into Jennifer’s face.
“And in short,” he said, “I was afraid.”
“
Jennifer took a deep breath, then said, “Understand this, Honey. If you go through with . . . this,” and she snarled in EJ’s direction, “you are on your own. You can’t be a Dimera AND a Horton. The two are just -- mutually exclusive.”
“Oh, no, you’re wrong, Mom. Love, real love, is too mutual to ever be exclusive. EJ knows how you feel about him, and he’s never pressured me to choose.”
Abigail looked for a moment deeply into her mother’s face. Then turned back to the man she loved.
“Let us go then, you and I,” she quoted.
EJ shone like the prince of love.
“Wait for me in the car, will you darling? I’d like a word with your mother.”
Without looking back, Abigail walked out her mother’s doorway. Jennifer stood there, (skinny) arms crossed over her (skinny) chest, glaring at EJ.
“A story for you,” said EJ, smiling, prepossessed. A man in control. “I heard it in a monastery sermon, but will adjust it for the occasion.”
“Three people find themselves in Paradise, standing before the heavenly throne. They hear a Voice that says, ‘Who might you be?’ The first person says, ‘My name is Alexandra Dimera Carver. I’ve done some terrible things in my lifetime. But I turned myself around and finally led a life based on love.’ ‘Come sit here at my right hand,’ says the Voice. “And you, who might you be?’”
“’My name is Jack Devereaux,’ the second person replies. (Jennifer visibly bristled). ‘I, too, have done terrible things. Nasty things. But I likewise reversed my life, and embraced real love.’ ‘Very well,’ says the Voice, ‘You sit here, at my left hand.’”
“The Voice then says to the last person, ‘Tell us about you?’
“’ My name is Jennifer Horton,” answers the third. ‘And I believe you are in my seat!’”
EJ proceeded to almost theatrically back through the doorway.
“I sent my Soul through the Invisible,
Some letter of that Life to spell:
And by and by my Soul
Returned to me,
And answered: ‘I Myself am
Heav’n and Hell.”
Vertical palm raised beside his mouth, like an aside, he said, “Omar Khayyam. Enjoy your lonely throne.”
One more scene change: We see Nicole in her room in the Salem inn. There’s a knock at the door. When she answers it, she’s surprised to see Eric standing there.
“What, come here to do my follow-up story after all?” she sing-songs at him. “Has Hell frozen over? Because that was what you’d said it would take -- and after my first story cleared the air about you! Some gratitude!”
“You’re right,” Eric walked slowly into the room. “I am here to do another story. But not the one you think?”
“Really?” Nicole tilted her head to one side, and rolled her eyes a little. “Ok, let me just set up my phone-cam here.”
“No need, “ said Eric. ‘We can tape it all later. Let me just give you the gist of it: I’m a priest.”
“No shit, Sherlock!” laughed Nicole. “Wait, you’re serious? You’ve gotten your vocation back?”
“I never really lost it. Someone helped me to see that today. Being a priest was never just my vocation; it is my summation. It’s the sum and substance of who I am. I could no more stop being a priest than I could stop . . .”
“Breathing?” said Nicole.
“Loving,” answered Eric. And he took a step closer.
“Eric, what is this? What’s happening?”
“A friend asked me today who in my life saves me. Who makes it worth living.”
“Well, certainly not me, “Nicole turned away, fiddled with a scarf on the bed stand. “I just make it miserable, apparently.”
“Which you would have no power to do, if you weren’t so overwhelmingly important. To me.”
She turned back toward him, fear wrestling with hope in her flashing violet eyes.
“I just have one question for you,” Eric said with the fullest of voices. “Could you be a priest’s wife?”
“I already am,” Nicole answered. “A priest is who you’ve always been. That’s your story. Church is only the font your story’s set in.
“And yours is who I’ve always have been. Haven’t always done a good job of it! But I could no more stop then . . .”
Eric reached into his pocket and pulled out a tiny white pebble, offering it to Nicole.
“A new pattern,” Eric answered. “Or a key to one of many mansions -- my Father invests broadly! Or better yet, the stone for an engagement ring?”
“Some diamond!” she laughed out loud. Then settled her gaze into his. “Yeah,” she purred, “some rock.” And she fell into his arms as he kissed her deeply.
Her head now on his shoulder, she asked, “So, we’re exclusive?”
“Mutually,” Eric smiled, for the first time in God knows how long.