#wheel's remarks

[wheel-deal]

Going to the store and get assistant from someone.

The person need someone higher up to help.

When the higher up person comes the person helping me tell the higher up: "They need help with blah blah blah."

The higher up says: I can help you with that ma'am

[wheel-deal-stitches]

Hey everyone I'm just curious if anyone can see this in the cross stitch tag? My last picture isn't appearing in any of the tags I used. I'm confused because I've never seem to have this problem before.

[wheel-deal]

Dreams

if there was any doubt that i like women before this morning. it needs to be gone now. had a dream i was in the center of a very homophobic place but a girl came by singing a gay song. i started to hum along until she caught me. at which point she sat across from me. put her hands around me and as i stared into her eyes and beautiful face we finishing singing the gay song together. after we finished we held eachother for a brief moment. before she was called away. i tried telling her how amazing it was to experience such a gay act where we were. but my words were drowned out. and i watched her walk away. wishing i had kissed her. wishing i knew who she was so i could meet her again and there was a very attractive butch spun another girl around, whom she didnt know, give her a long kiss. winked and walked away. i woke up after missing the first girl and being jealous of the one who was kissed by the butch woman.

[wheel-deal]

Y'all I haven't even seen Good Omens yet

But I just had a dream last night where they were working together and kept getting separated and were using ligr8 and limb and tooth and nail to be together and keep the other safe.

And it ended with them being A.) Being together and B.) Yelling at a wall

A bunch of people found this portal that leads to something awful and didn't know how to close it for safety. So in comes The angel and demon duo back from an art show date they had been on. The situation is explain and say "have you tried using magic?"

So Aziraphale walks over and shouts "FUCK OFF!" then just smiles and moves aside so Crowley can be infront now. Then he goes, "Angel said bugger off!"

And the portal closes.

[wheel-deal]

Tomorrow is either going to be a really good day, or a really bad one. 

im going to try to prepare for the worst but hope for the best

either way im going to be anxious and i cant relax my body its too stressed

[wheel-deal]

honest talk at 12:41 am. 

as someone who was been handicapped my entire life it does kinda bother me when people call for “strong” for doing things. Like thanks? but im just here in my own little world trying to what i like and can and because its not as easy for me that makes me an inspiration? 

like. no? what else am i going to do? i understand how it can be interpreted as strong from an outsiders perspective but its just normal everyday life for me. I like to swim. but i cant climb to get out of the pool. so i swim my little heart out and then gets pulled out. thats not strength? thats just adapting and surviving in the situation im in. 

along the lines of pools. th last pool party i went to was when i could still talk, and i really wanted to go off the diving board. bc diving boards are cool and makes me feel like i can jump, something i cant do normally. so i climbed up on the board and used my crutches to walk to the end. threw my crutches to the side and dove. i was in the moment though just trying not to fall off the board and wasnt paying attention to anyone around me. But when i came up from the dive almost everyone was cheering and clapping and came up after talking about it. but this wasnt strength in my opinion. i just wanted to go splash.

and this trend never has and never will make sense to me. i try to just to ordinary mundane things. just trying to exist you know. but i get called strong for it. i dont feel strong im just doing my thing like everyone else. and i dont like being praised for it. and it kinda sucks even more because you making a big deal out of it actually takes away from the experience for me. 

i dont feel strong. i just want to go about my life as “normal” as possible. and just because my normal is harder that doesnt make me strong. i dont know any other way? and i dont feel strong when im crying bc i cant do things or do them normally, or im entire body is in pain.

wow. this is some word vomit, whoops.

tldr i dont like being called strong.

[wheel-deal]

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[wheel-deal]

what to do when you need to wake up a good 4 hours earlier than you normally do and also only a few hours after you normally go to bed? you take double your normal melatonin 5 hours earlier and hope for the best :)))