#whinging again

[cyberspaceoddity]

Well my stepdad’s talking about us moving house again because he never liked it here and he likes it less and less all the time, but my Mum is hellbent on us not moving

I mean I don’t want to move and I don’t honestly think we could do it financially

I’m giving it an hour tops before they fucking argue or settle on being in shitty moods for a week or so

The unsubtle just-slamming of anything on hinges has already begun

[friendly-firefly]

im just so frustrated, like i really want him to like me but i also hate that i want that? i shouldnt want someones affection this badly but i do UGH

[unbe--weave--able]

*she grins back, saying slightly sarcastically* Nope, too late to take it back darling, as you can see I'm clearly mortally offended...but you're right, my valid point is in no way life threatening, at least I don't think it is at any rate, but you're probably right, as usual, i will remember eventually, well maybe. Yes, but you never know, your previous self might've got his hands on them or something, and who knows what he'd do to them, especially seeing as most of them were of your fifth self, but hopefully they'll still be there. Well okay, I'm just not so sure that they are, I mean they're good by my standards, but I'm hardly an expert...*she grins back* Well yeah it is kinda clever, i mean for one thing trees can't run away, also you just cut them down and boom, your enemy is dead, so i can kinda see why she chose trees and all of a sudden it doesn't seem so silly anymore, it's actually kinda frightening. Of course you do, you're my hero. I suppose so, but still she didn't have to call me a worthless incompetent fool, did she. Cool, well i can't wait to hear about it, well maybe not on that particular planet then, but maybe there's another one out there where you can be turned into a cat, or something else, I mean whatever it is it'll probably be me turning into it...*she smiles back* Alright then, i know you wouldn't let that happen, but still I don't want you near Him just in case, it'd kill me to lose you again…I'm not confused, I just don't understand how you can still sort of pity them in a way, even after everything you've seen them do, though I know you really don't like killing, at all, and neither do I, even though I've accidentally done it before, but okay...I know, though there's never going to be something I won't tell you, well unless it's something that could potentially hurt you, in that case I'd keep it to myself, even if it hurt me. What would happen if you went against those rules Doctor? What's happened before? Would they do something bad to you? and you're welcome, though of course I understand, I mean we come from completely different worlds, there are bound to be things that you can't tell me about yours. Well I don't know if I'd be able to help it Doctor, evil scares me, no matter who it comes from...*she grins back* Well, I do want to believe it, it'd mean our friendship was actually real as opposed to it just being me under his charm...Well I wouldn't know, I'm not very good with name origins and all that...*she giggles* Well i guess not, though it is a fitting nickname, but yeah i'll probably remember once I get round to actually telling the story...*she grins back* You're welcome and of course I'd help you, so if you ever find a way to explain what they are just tell me and Ill try to help as best as I can...*she grins again* Yep, now I know...*she smiles back, saying enthusiastically*...I've finished...it won't spoil my appetite anyway... [[Hi :D…Well i don't think there are, i mean last year they let is talk to me cousin of fb all evening, so i don't see why they wouldn't do the same on here and that'd work coz we end up staying up til past one coz me dad skypes the rest of the family at that time :D...Bugger, already? Well that was quick! Awesome, now sexy seven and Peri  I mean sexy seven and Ace, have somewhere to go :D I do say so, and well I don't really mind how long yer can keep it away, as long as it's gone for now :D Well i have kinda seen the evidence of me own eyes, I do kinda have to believe yer about it now :D Aye I suppose we shall :D I thought it might've, and yer probs are the only person who doesn't confuse him like that, well yer really shouldn't, whether it's for what yer do with him or anything else...Yep, and I'm an in between stage :D *Neither did I, I just made it up, and I think a supreme Whovian is like actor level of Whovian :D* I know yer don't mind :D That's way too early to be having meetings of any sort, let alone school ones, and no one can function at 9 am, I mean heck even tho I get to school at 8 I don't function properly til gone 12 :D Well no one's asked is that, mainly coz they'd know the answer anyway,; tho I will tell them to stuff it if they start on me hair :D Yer made a Sexy Seven/Sexy Sylv calendar? That's Awesome, and I missed the post about it :/ Why do i always miss the cool posts? Aye, mission 2015, find a way to meet up somehow, somewhere, without miraculously learning to drive in six months :D Well i did just mean or hitting tossers, but sadly I don't know anyone in range who has a walking stick :D Yeah right, I'm always gonna be their wee little girl, who's defo not an adult in any form of the word, and I'm no growing up fast at all, just because I'm a wee bit more independent now, and I'm more likely to do something stupid if they keep making so many rules, I'm gonna feel the need to rebel, well i hope they will realise it...and if they have their way they'll be controlling is til I'm gone 50, and I am just a stupid kid, if I wasn't I would've already figured out a way to get out of this. thanks for the belief tho it's kinda wasted on is, i'll never be able to prove anything to them, I'm hopeless...Negotiate? With him? A brick wall listens to is better, and probs cares more too...it'd probs help, if I wasn't feeling the way I do now, which is borderline Niagara falling coz I've had enough of this, but yer summed it up perfectly...:) *It sounds it, everything I say sounds pathetic, especially when i see that some people have it so much worse than me* *Thanks I need it :D*]]

[siuilaruinofthegale]

Moping bout body stuff.

My self-esteem is the best it's ever been. Really, it is. I see myself in the mirror and I'm not disgusted; I even like what I see most of the time. 

That being said, I really want to lose weight. I like being fit and having muscles. I just. . .have such a hard time sticking to any exercise regimen. My diet is okay, aside from the part where I drink way too much Coke. So I know the only thing there is to do is exercise and stick to it. 

But, like I said, it's so hard. It's not an uncommon affliction. I just have so little energy and motivation on even good days. It doesn't help that I'm always on night shift and the time I like to run is in the evenings. Plus, if I exercise before I go to work, I'm already so drained when I get there that it makes me perform worse. Exercising at ~midnight when I'm already tired from work? Yeah, no.

I wish there were permanent energy boosts sold in stores.

[horce-divorce]

update : I'm shaking so hard i don't have full control of my arms its kind of amazing 

im eatinv g crackers 

[binarybird]

[cyberspaceoddity]

Oh come on Why do I have to start over thinking things again now I've been really happy for a while but apparently my brain is having none of that shit Fuck

[aaiax-blog]

I can't even tell whats going on with my body. I bought these Levi jeans two weeks ago and they were slightly big around the waist but tighter everywhere else so it was fine, a belt worked. I haven't worn them in about a week and now the waist is about 4 inches too big easily... The rest isn't as tight as what it was at first either.

WHY IS THIS SO HARD?!?! Seriously, I understand that jeans stretch but ffs how can it stretch that much. I'm actually pissed off, I spent £72 on these. I didn't even want to try on the smaller sizes because they fit me well in the leg. I've worn them about 2 times but not for that long and not outside my house. I literally do not understand what's going on.

I don't have access to scales or measuring tape so I can't even see if I've lost weight and that in conjunction with the stretching has resulted in this. I just want a good pair of fitting jeans that doesn't cost the earth.

(At least when I take these back I have money to live.)