#whining post

[sunshinesanctuary]

I want to write beautiful things but my brain is a mashed potato

[thudworm]

I was an idiot trying to do too many things at once, and I sliced my finger open on a broken glass and it hurts :(

And I’m annoyed at myself about it, because I was trying to get shit done to finally have some writing time, except I’ve now accomplished the exact opposite

I can’t comfortably sit at my laptop just to dick around, much less type stuff, because I need to keep it elevated, and the pain is too distracting as well anyway

[kateknowsdramas]

The Rebel Princess gifset I’m working on is trying to kill me. My PS has crashed 3 times. I’m trying to match all my settings to make the gifs look nice.  And attempting to fit a quiet, gentle 3 minute scene into 10 gifs is the worst. It’s taken me 2 hours just to get it done. 

But I do this for fun!

[freyja-333]

What I hate the most about khh/krn albums is that if you don’t buy them immediately, they are gone forever within a couple of months. There are many albums that I love ( i.e Scene by Rad museum, Muggles mansion by Code kunst , Downtown baby by Bloo etc)  but I can’t have ‘em because are now out of print and impossible to find. It’s so freaking stressful , most of all because I always have to buy 2/3 albums together to compensante for the shipping fee and sometimes I have to wait... one of these days anxiety is gonna kill me 🙃

[thespooniewrites]

CRP: too high to be comfy!

Stomach: hurting!

Mood: down!

Energy: low!

Writing: suffering because of it!

Point of this post: none, just wanted to whine!

[sweetfirebird]

And the I am garbage and a failure feels are back again today. I really should not look at what other people are doing. It just reminds me of all the things I haven’t done, or did myself so are sort of wonky and sucky, or all the things I haven’t done and need to do. ...And all the places and people I cannot rely on for help. It’s not overwhelming at all. 

Ugh I want to ignore it and just lie here but I was supposed to have this book formatted and ready to go uh, like two weeks ago, but I really just see no point now. 

[melodramatic-butterfly]

Is it bad I want somebody who will pick me up and spin me around when I see him? Somebody who can make an actual connection to and not just based off "oh I think you're hot?" Someone who will carry me around when I'm lazy for fun? Someone who bring me food? Someone who can tell something's off by texting or my facial expressions? Someone who'll give me endless hugs?

[bi-leigh-bi]

It's not toxic to point out what's wrong with the books- biphobia, pushing someone to come out, girls hating each other just cause, boys cheating, not even getting into how CC fetishizes and uses malec without actually treating it with any respect or caring about it. It's not toxic to point out where the show is fucking up- their treatment of characters of color in terms of story telling choices, those awful castings for the younger versions of the Lightwood siblings, etc. It's not toxic to point out that some ships are in fact harmful to the people in your fandom- you can argue "ship and let ship" til you're blue in the face but clalec is still fucking homophobic and lowkey racist. And if other fans of color or LGBTQ fans telling you this over and over doesn't matter to you, you're a terrible person. It isn't toxic to talk about real issues in terms of fandom and the show or books, and how they affect real people- media informs and is informed by what's going on in the real world, so the argument that it's just a show or books or a ship, is ridiculous and disingenuous. Stop bitching that the fandom is oh so toxic. Block or unfollow or blacklist if you really can't handle discourse.