#whiny me

[rk1k-hyperfixated]

I want more rk1k content

Mine is a thirst that will never be quenched

🥺

[maitre-kuroneko]

Just let me whine a little

Last year my cousin and I had the project to go to London and visit the HP studios, then we discovered she had Crohn’s disease and it had to be postponed. This year she learnt part of her family would pay her the trip, as a birthday gift, she enrolled me in the trip because “we said we would go together and you’re the only one speaking english”. Turns out her family didn’t contribute “enough” and she only has half the cash needed. So, instead, she’ll go a week in Spain. Yes, last year she wanted to go to London although she had to pay the total price for the journey, this year she won’t pay half. And me ? Oh well she sent me a long message justifying herself and about how her current plan is better... I should add that until now our main worry was to know if her husband would have vacations for a long week-end... and now she doesn’t have worries about leaving a week ? I didn’t answer. I feel let down. I know it’s not a big thing, it’s not against me (probably), but I can’t help feeling disappointed, I really wanted to go and that’s why I didn’t complained when she enrolled me without even asking if I had the money for the trip. Right now I feel like people see me as the really nice person who won’t ever make a fuss, who’s there when they need me but won’t even think I could want things and be upset if it doesn’t happen.

Intellectually I know the situation is not worth the mental torturing I’m doing to myself right now, but it piles with other things and, euhm, the glass is spilling ?

Remember my crazy mean grand-ma ? Last time my mother had her on the phone she kept talking about all people being sick around her, having cancer, all of it in great details. So yeah we know a lot of things about strangers but when it’s our family we know after their death (am I bitter about the death of my grandad ? Oh yes, very much).

My ex/problematic friend ? Will promise to see you twice before Christmas, will even say he has a great idea for a Christmas gift. How many times have I seen him since october ? None.

My dad’s been saying for 3 years we’ll go somewhere together, every year it’s postponed (really dad, it’s starting sounding like when I was a child and you were promising to take me to Disneyland - I ended up going as an adult, without him - please stop).

My boss saying she would help me fold and send the invitations. Yeah no, I did it alone, like last time.

Please people, stop saying things that won’t happen, it became so regular I don’t even believe you from the start.

In bad days I think people are making promises out of pity, if they don’t keep their word it’s surely because of me.

Yesterday was a bad day.

Really hard to fend off, because my computer wouldn’t stay on for more than ten minutes in a row, so no writing to get all out, no music to distract annoyingly-self-deprecating-brain, no tumblr, no... well I was extremely put out.

[tinyfeatherpants]

Its really stormy here. *crouches in the farthest corner of the room*

[everything-after-childhood]

How the fuck do I do this?! Ot is so scary, difficult, sad amd heartbreaking...

[confusedfeelsfangirl]

I want to cry bc I really would like to make tiktoks but I’m just not hot... I see all these super hot people with great takes on fandom subjects and I’m here looking like a 14 year old despite being in my twenties and having a gender crisis when I look like the stereotype of “curvy friend who’s not pretty enough to be a potential datemate but cute enough to keep around”...

[poewingsdameron]

Trying to pull myself together for work today is harder than usual :( I just want to curl under blankets and rest, don't wake me up

[countdookusbignaturals]

Going on a trip in a different country with my entire grade in two days and my anxiety is going crazy right now.

[proud-to-be-a-freak]

I'm boooored! But it's not the "Let me read or watch TV" kind of boredom but the "I'm forced to stay on the couch and keep my leg rested on a pillow" kind which is TERRIBLE because everything I could do now like reading, drawing, playing video games, browsing tumblr or watching TV seems even more boring to me now. I crave for a long walk in the park.