okay so a few things i'm mad/angry/annoyed about:
my birthday was the seventeenth, 20th birthday and i had a family party. my aunts and uncles, grandma, leah, my mom, brothers and sisters were there. ok? like 15 people i believe. my brother josh told me that he couldn't get me anything until friday cause he had just bought his jeep - totally understand you know? and he lends me money all the time. josh is a sweetheart, i love him. favorite brother. zach? said happy birthday to me, then went on the laptop the whole time. pretty much ignored the whole entire fucking family. i was outraged. but that's not it. he didn't say anything about a present which is annoying to me because he's the reason why my car is horrible, he never helps me with anything its just dumb. so him and josh leave and shania comes in "zach just gave me money to get kenny a gift, isn't that nice of him?!" i was fucking so offended. i've never been more offended. how rude. seriously. and shania gets everything already. everyone loves her. perfect gorgeous daughter. makes no mistakes. and he gave her a hundred dollars. to get a gift. for her boyfriend. and didn't say a WORD to me. i literally almost cried and idc if that's pathetic but it's an asshole move it was me 20th birthday... like what the hell.
then my so called "best friend" (starts with a k and you all who know about my rl life will know and it will click) has been back from college and hasn't said a word. said happy birthday to me and that's it. didn't wanna see me though she hasn't in months. instead is hanging out with her boyfriend AGAIN
then i'm getting this feeling like i'm being annoying to everyone. my family, my friends, everyone. my mom makes jokes about how she's glad when i leave and it fucking hurts my feelings
and whenever i try to talk to people i'm ignored
and i just am really getting tired of things cause there's only so much i can take before i'm going to shut down every friggen friendship i have and not caring
like i'm a really good friend and seriously, all i do is give