Happy Birthday, my sweet!
I wrote @whowasntthere a letter for her birthday today and wanted to share it with all of you: ------ K - I've tried to write you this letter a dozen times and I keep fucking it up. I want to tell you how much you mean to me, but as soon as I try to write it down, it comes across as an awkward essay with dainty frills. You know that doesn't sound like me, and I want to talk to you in a way that doesn't creep you out or detract from the sentiment. So, without further ado: I fucking love you. I love you because you are a goddamned transcendent being. You're something rare and precious, yet utterly strong and badass. You're a typhoon and a zephyr. I've never known anyone that feels more passionately or fights more fiercely for righteousness as you, but I've also never known someone who cares more sweetly and understands more easily than you, either. You're hilarious, smart, beautiful, sexy, creative, insightful, vicious, charming, pervy, worldly, and honest. You're a creature I could write an entire book about and never adequately capture; even though you're my closest and longest friend, you're still something different and full of secrets. I watch your eyes and it feels like I'm staring into a favorite ocean's waters -- bright and sparkling, yet rushing and unfathomable. It's your birthday. You deserve all of the most wonderful things in life, and I know you hate all of this right now, but I don't care. I can't let this day go without letting you know how much I love you. It might be something you'd rather avoid, but to me, this day is incredibly special because it's the beginning of you. Without this day, I wouldn't have you, and that's just unacceptable. I love you. I need you. And I hope you have a wonderful day, if there's anything I can do about it. If you absorb even a fraction of this letter's content, you'll have just scratched the surface of how awesome it is to know you, let alone be lucky enough to have you as a spouse. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you and to have so many adventures together, through birthdays, seasons, strange portents, and wild familiars. I love you. Again and again. Happy Birthday, my sweet.
