I have a fic in the works (vague idea ive thought about 2 times) and i wanna ramble about it but idk. which like. blog to do it on. because like the purpose of this blog and its associated ao3 account is to post works that im not quite confident with. like writing smut is relatively new to me and can also feel embarrassing just in general. which you know like. i would hope that fandom spaces would be welcoming and non-judgemental. and i know i am literally just One guy and if someone doesn’t like my shit they will simply move on (and if they are an ass then thats on them). and i Hope to one day come out of the ‘shadows of anonymity’ bc . its just easier. and i feel a little silly sometimes that this blog exists at all. but like despite all these things that logically i know to be true i just get SO nervous. and i am no longer even talking about the fic bc now ive started rambling about this so like whoops but. man. th. you know . man.
i still dont let my (irl) friends read my works (except accidentally one time. shudder.) and its like. man those are ur friends 😭 they will be nice to you 😭