summer reminds me of 14 steps and 14 steps reminds me of you.
itโs insane how i read that fic as a miserable little teenager and now iโm literally going off to my dream school as a uni student for philosophy in less than 2 months.
at the time, 14 steps was such a source of comfort for me because i was at a point in my life where i was terrified i would amount to nothing. paralyzed by inaction, i didnโt know how to move on from the past. during that summer i got absolutely shitfaced on coming of age media like omg it was honestly crazy. but things are different now, and i think i have started to commit to a little less yearning and a lot more learning!!
sometimes i look back to 14stab as a reference point, and i often want to thank you.
your passion for writing makes me want to be better too and i think that is super epicness ngl. iโm reading lots more, and i am starting to turn my ambitions into reality.
i feel like im the biggest 14stab and viv glazer on the planet but eh, so be it!
itโs great to hear from you again. always wishing you well in a little corner of my heart n mind. yay!
hey min !! so sorry for not getting back to you sooner !! i've been so busy with everything in my life at the moment and couldn't carve out the time to properly read your message and respond. every time someone tells me how much 14 steps resonated with them, i can't help but feel so much joy at the thought that, even if my words were a true reflection of my own anxieties, fears, and doubts about what kind of adult i'll become after uni ends as a second-year student with zero experience owing to the pandemic basically locking me in the house for the first two years of my uni life, i'm glad people found a sense of solidarity and comfort in that, in this idea that we're really not alone in this journey. i'm overjoyed to hear that you got into your dream school, pursuing what you want, and learning as you go. i think the tunnel vision that the pandemic created can definitely consume you in its black, endless void, but there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, and i think, as cringy as this sounds, i've been trying to think about that aspect of resilience a little bit more (also because as someone who's currently studying disaster risk reduction, resilience, management, preparedness, etc., it's kind of hard to be pessimistic and ennui about things such as courage, bravery, and resilience....).
in the same way you've constantly thanked me for providing you with some of my works, which are an extension of myself, i'd like to thank you for reaching out to me personally and speaking with me. our interactions here and there really mean so much to me, and getting to know you as a person made my writing journey here unforgettable, almost as if i'm reminded that there's real people out there reading my works, hearing what i have to say, and taking my words with you. truly, that kind of interaction always warms my heart.
i hope you're well, and as always, do keep in touch !! my inbox is always free, even if my reply schedule is SO BAD