#wormyz random thoughts

[thewormofyourdreams]

wet, sloppy, messy, kinky sex with mingyu except you're crying because everything felt too good and he's crying cause he's overwhelmed by how lucky he feels having you in his life and you look so beautiful and now you're both crying and sobbing for completely different reasons

[thewormofyourdreams]

all credit to the owners 🙏🏻 thank you for your service

ughhhhh so ig mingyu the type to take advantage of his height, towering over you with his chest pressed against yours (or your back),making sure that all you see is him and nothing else. but he acts all clueless (or he could ACTUALLY be clueless, though i doubt it) about the effect he has on you, especially as he leans down to whisper something either completely random or share a lame joke, hot breath tickling your skin, lips brushing against your earlobe and his scent surrounded you. he'd giggle after that, pulling back just enough so he can look at your reaction, his puppy eyes wide and expectant, all while not a single word registered in your fried brain.

and- if he's feeling touchy, he'd have a hand on your waist or around your shoulders or on your nape, holding you close, his touch is light and almost absentminded, but if you try to pull away even a little bit, his grip would tighten just so, just enough so that you know he doesn't want you anywhere else but right where you are, pressed close against him.

but then, infuriatingly, he'd pull away the moment you give whatever half-hearted, slightly dazed response that comes to your mind. and he'd walk away, a glint of satisfaction in his eyes, smirking to himself the moment he turns his back to you.

[thewormofyourdreams]

the only thing in my mind these days is all the gyuboo content we've been getting lately. i MIGHT just open an ao3 acc and write gyuboo fics if they keep this up.

like fym kwan slept in your room cause he "doesn't want to be alone"? huh? is that a normal occurrence? did yall hit each other up whenever you feel lonely?? did you cuddle him when slept with you?? did you hold him in your big strong arms and kiss his pretty cheeks and murmur sweet nothings into his ear until he fell asleep?? huh??? did you pull him back to bed and caress his hair when he woke up after dreaming about going to the military?? did you, kim mingyu??? is that why you've been clingy?????? you need to feel him in your arms again all the time and make sure everyone knows he's yours and yours alone???????????

[thewormofyourdreams]

to all carat writers on tumblr,

i need yall to stop writing cute, slice-of-life imagines/drabbles of svt members where they're married and/or acting domestic.

that 400 words drabble affects me more than a 15k angst i had to take a breather or I'll imagine my life living with them and trust that we DON'T want that.

sincerely,

im losing my grip on reality.

[thewormofyourdreams]

in light of this

I give you:

• kyeomshu - "We can't be together." "I know."

• solboo - "I watch you more than you think."

• minwon - "Thank you for the love that doesn't make me feel lonely."

• seokgyu - "mingyu, it's you." (in gose)

• hanshua - "If you quit, I quit."

• soonhoon - "so you do like it? (when he's clingy)" "Of course."

• shuahao - "....and I'm really glad you came here to Korea. It's hard to adjust right? It's okay I'll be here to help."

• gyuhao - "when the confetti falls, I'll run to you."

• soonhoon - "we won't be seeing each other for a while, so let's meet on a train if we get a chance to."

• haohan - "myungho, hello, you don't have to take charge of the sky in svt anymore."

• gyucheol - "I'm thankful for you. I don't think I've ever told you that" & "I love mingyu more than anyone else" & "happy birthday my baby, my love"

• cheol to carat - "we kept our promise that all 13 will stay together!"

they always say the most oscar worthy, jane austen shit on a random tuesday like we get it, y'all love each other

EDIT: AND THEY LOVE US TOO! IM IN THIS DIAMOND LIFE TILL MY LAST BREATH

[thewormofyourdreams]

i wanna try to write fluff sb but im too sad all the time

[thewormofyourdreams]

just had my first ever real emotional fight and cried about it for like an hour or so. now im feeling floaty.

that being said, now I understand why couples have those fights in fics. i used to think they were being so irrational and stupid. guess WHO'S being irrational and stupid now 😀

me. i was.

might write a couple angst fics from this experience. I've got prime material here

[thewormofyourdreams]

no one will ever convince me that fanfic writers aren't real writers when i have a couple specific authors on ao3 that i fw heavy. I'd give my first born child to them. If i lost my memories the first thing I'd do is read their fics again like it's the first time. my obsession with their fics runs so deep you'd pry open my veins and see every word written on its walls. i have to hold myself back from thinking too much about their fics whenever im in public or I'll be vibrating with the sheer force of my unadulterated excitement. can you tell im rambling rn because i just revisited one of my fav fics for the first time after months of drought due to a shitty thing called life? you're right. and just like an addict who keeps crawling back to their addictions, I find myself on my hands and knees, foaming at the mouth as i opened yet another tab on my chrome and read and read and read and read.