//you think that being a cynic is the way to beat your leering childhood and your burned hopes and dreams in the ash of your home. you think that anger and bitterness, formed in the roots of cussing and cursing what you used to love is enough to claim your identity, your personhood that no one let you have. all your kicked-aside ideas that were your own, all your fought-over beliefs that were denied to manipulate your mind... your spite, your distrust, your struggle doesn't shock me any more than your words. favor has become a foreign tongue, and it's hard to speak anything in the spew. adulthood, to you, is the ability to not be taken in by anything good. gullibility was a personal curse, and between mother and father all you have is your trapped anguished self. brokenness was too much, unfair of a loving God. so obviously, this broken world means that He has abandoned it for the next. there is only the burning. and I don't have words to make real how the world is broken, but not just that. the world is haunted by beauty, and yet you stopped listening to ghosts and peace amidst pain and anger and the burden of others happiness around your neck. because this world was not our cross to bear. you can scream and hate me and try to write your way out all on your own but can you write your own salvation, your own rescue from a raft? this place is His. and He does not call us dead, though we walk among death. He split open a tombstone, and He does not call you worthless. peace will never come from chasing anger and pain and absorbing it. He already took the wreckings of sin. you can crawl out of the graveyard the asylum the bone-rattling hatred broken but alive. you can find a stream of water and put down roots. come and drink from the water again. come be a child haunted by beauty again. come love without fear and accept love without a price, without bribes or bitterness or twisting of hearts. He calls you and I worthy even with busted-up hearts. #poetry #throwback #letters #fromthearchives #wovenglass #hope #storm #amwriting #unsplash (photo from @unsplash by https://www.flickr.com/photos/lucychian )
