Pippa found it hard to even look at Natalia, let alone find a reasonable and smart response to the words that were tumbling from her mouth. Her gaze was almost imploring as it focused on the older woman and very quickly she became lodged between feel accused and feeling guilty. The latter very quickly became the winning emotion, pouring through her features as she looked at the woman she genuinely adored. “Natalia...” She breathed, feeling the wind being knocked out her lungs with each word and sad look. She’d failed her. Natalia had needed her and she had....failed her. She swallowed thickly and looked down toward her feet, gripping at the hem of her shirt tightly.
“Ignoring you though? Really? Why on Earth would I ignore you? You know I’ve been studying recently. I have exams that I keep telling you I need to cram for and it doesn’t make it better that I wasn’t there for you but it should at least convince you I would never ignore you.” Pippa took a daring step closer and gripped the corner of the surface that separated them. She looked practically desperate as her eyes grew hotter and damper with each word. She knew Natalia had an issue and she was so incredibly proud that she was talking to someone about it but there were times when she couldn’t drop anything. When the stress made her world so focused and small that even the other took a backseat.
And when Pippa inferred from Natalia’s words that she was the one playing around, her shoulders squared and she breathed in sharply. “Do you really think this is a game to me? Some decision I can make chosen by the flip of a coin? I want to be with you. I want to be there for you. You should know that.” A hot tear rolled down her cheek and she harshly pushed it away. And maybe she was over her head and maybe she was a little crazy and young and naive to have found herself in this situation but she wanted to be with Natalia. Shyly but with determination, she extended her hand. “Baby, I’m in. I’m so fucking in. All in.” But then she hesitated. “If....you still are...” @leftlipstick
