oh , he never thought he’d be this man. feeling empty ─ twice the intensity of anything that’s ever hollowed him out. if he were to walk on tile. on a floor that produced sound , in a room that relayed the loudest echo ; he would not hear his footsteps. ─ in reference to himself , the moment he has lost sight of his own structure. and the voices do not stop , if he could resonate the feeling ... they are louder. pressure building , like two hands are trying to crush his brain.
there is no room for pride , as charles has stood a far distance , analyzing the break down. the possibility of this conversation , to the twist of his heart ─ the attempt to steady his breath. there he sees erik and the words play loudly in his head , as if a memory has burst within the content of his mind. ‘ so what, you don’t trust me? ‘ that hits him , and he has to stop ─ he pinches the bridge of his nose with his thumb and index finger ; he notices the shake within his body ... and he just , can’t. all of the things he wanted to say are written so clearly in the back of his mind. oh the fear of something left unsaid.
but charles , he finds it in him to approach erik - to know this will only go south , this will end. the purpose was not to dig up the past , it was ... there was - something leftover that didn’t leave him feeling like the dead beneath the ground. though he’s given himself away as his voice travels like a broken record. broken , and pieces are missing.
“ just tell me you’re okay , i ─ “ he pauses , finding it much harder to breathe. “ i have to - i ... need to make sure everyone’s okay. anything else and to not know , is not .. something to bear thinking about. “ it goes and goes ; he’s talking too much. his voice shakes. struggling. he can’t. there was nothing more devastating than losing hope right then and there ─ this moment he saw a light switch in his mind , the space it occupied was rather dim ─ that light , the last light - stood right in front of him. charles , tries to smile. “ erik please ── “
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