Nov 1, 2021
scrolling, liking and reblogging on tumblr, to get some little serotonin
#i don't feel anything else anymore#yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...............#havin fun!#.....#I just wanna lie in a hot tub#no i want to talk to people#can u believe that?#that I'm craving to socialize?#chatting laughing dancing singing with none of us havin no good singing voice#and two left feet#but we're together and that's just it#that's everything#.... and i want this so bad#i can't stand being alone anymore after so many years#but it's also so frightenting to not be alone#to like people and wanting to mean something to them#be important to them#because- as wonderful this feeling is-#its unbearable heavy when you are alone with this#alone with your thoughts and anxiety crawls up on you#and you don't even know who you are anymore#why you are suddenly so dependent on someone else#it's so pathetic and jet-#Everything I wish for right now#being part of something#companionship#having a place#a person#.............................. who the fuck am i even talking to?