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I hate railjack so much i gave up the entire mastery rank farming thing i was planning to do

#who cares about anythjng >mr30 anyways im not seeing another orm crewship #one mission takes like 15 minutes id actually rather do void flood or shit like that #i wanna throw up i hate that part of farming so much i actually dont wanna touch warframe for the rest of the day #and i realize you dont need to be good at the game or something to get to LR5 #you need time #a hella fucking lot of time #and maybe some plat to get through the farms that you dont wanna do #i was thinking “yeah maybe ill stop at LR3-” NO STOP RIGHT FUCKING NOW #also i didnt even use much of that relay blessing stuff like why tf was i going for mr30 in the first place if i dont use that #sigh #maybe ill just rack up some plat with my ivara and buy some skins that was in my wishlist for a long time #or actually buy that cyte bundle #i hate the fact that i loterally have the plat for that rn its just so not worth it to spend 600p for a glyth #ramble

I hate having to admit it but I still miss him. Maybe what I miss were the good times, his companionship and his warmth and they way he would comfort me and the way he would hold me and would love me and accept me. I know that it had to end at some point because the entire relationship became toxic and I understand he wasn’t for me at the end of the day but I’m drowning in these feelings for him I still check up on him to see what’s happening in his life and it’s such a bad habit and I should stop and honestly thinking about the fact that maybe he’s already moved on and doesn’t really care that much anymore feels so awful I hate the idea that he’s already moved on while I’m still stuck here in the exact same place and I keep telling myself and others that it’s fine and I’ll be okay but I’m having a hard time actually believing it and I keep expressing these emotions with sarcasm but that’s not how I feel I just don’t know how else to express myself it’s just at one point he felt like home to me and it’s hard to erase that and I’m so weak that if he asked to try again I’d say yes in a heartbeat but I can’t and ik I shouldn’t have this one relationship determine future ones but I genuinely feel like relationships aren’t for me and I want to prove myself wrong and this is so long but if I don’t put forth the tornados in my head I will actually reach a new low in my life and I can’t not when I have so much to do I also realize I’ve used no punctuation and my grammar is a mess but so am I and I genuinely need to love myself and not let my insecurities get the better of me bc face it we all have them but not letting them control me is important and learning to accept these parts of me that I dislike is also important and I’m learning and unlearning at the same time and maybe not today or two weeks from now but someday I’ll feel complete on my own

#writing #sorry to future me #you'll get through this Nafisa #you need time #I believe in you #personal