Dear Levi (you-areperfectx on Tumblr),
My amazing boyfriend. You are my everything. My world. The reason I go to sleep. The reason I wake up. The reason I'm still eating, still breathing, still trying to live longer. I'm fighting myself. Part of my just wants to die, but the other part wants to stay for you. Just in case you're still alive. Just in case you come back. I need you, and I hope you need me, too. I love you so much. Everything about you. Your smile, how we would Skype on the weekend. I even love your insecurities. You made me feel happy. You were the reason I stopped self harming. Without you, I'm nothing. And that's what I am right now, I'm nothing. You make me something. I'm depressed, tired, anxious, stressed out. I only want you back. Or just a good bye. That's all I want. But it's killing me, laying down to sleep, not knowing if you're even going to come back. If you're even alive. It's not your fault, trust me, I understand. You'd be here if you could be. But I do want you to know that I love you with all of my fucking heart. Levi, you're my everything, and I just want you back. You're all I'll wish for on every holiday. I'll wish until I have you again.
Love,
Your boyfriend Chris