#youllalwaysbetheone

[freddietarkovsky-blog]

I’m good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I’m not the devil. I’m just a small town boy in a big world trying to find someone to love. ♥️ #wishyouwerehere #youllalwaysbetheone (at Boston, Massachusetts)

[amiracapellaauriga]

Why are you doing this ? Why are you making me fall out of love with you ? Why did you stop trying ? I LOVE YOU. but im so unhappy. I’m miserable being in love with you. I’m not happy anymore and I can’t seem to get out of this sadness. I know you love me but you’re letting me slip away . you’re not seeing it before its too late and its scaring me that one day I won’t be able to take it anymore and I’ll lose you forever. So for now I’ve been putting up with my depression. But sometimes it creeps on me when I least expect it and I have to leave the room so you don’t see . see how much I’m hurting. I don’t want you to see that I’m starting to think we won’t make it. I’m scared because its everything you ever pictured for us and so did I. But its just not there anymore. The spark. The warm feeling you get when you’re waiting and expecting someone. The spontaneous romantic moments , the reassurance that I am the only girl for you and I do make you happy and I AM worth the effort. But its gone. Its all gone. I’m holding on to my love for you because you’re the only thing I know. But what’s the scariest thing of all if that i m starting to think we were just not meant to be forever.

- this was a year and a half ago ..... I was scared to ever publish this so it was sitting in my drafts the whole time ... These were some of my thoughts ...this broke my heart ... But what really broke my heart was how you didn't know you wee killing me the whole time ...