I AM BACK!
honestly.. i do not expect all this people to be worried for me, normally people just pass troguht anything i post and i tought it was going to be like all those time.. but even people i never expect care and worried for me, i sorry about that i have the first breakdown of the year i got them a lot during the year but i just bottle up everything that happen to me and just continue with a smile on the face to not worry people cause, i feel guilty of it a lot now i feel guilty about making you all worried... but thanks you the day i got this breakdown i feel misarable, lost and worthfless, i just post about my hiatus not make people think i was death cause i was gonna be off of a time, i got hit with a lot of stress thar i post that and turn off my every notiffication i could get because i was busy, but i wasnt's capable of study neither i was a mess i was crying, deshydrathed, hungry, ut i was just focus on study.. even if that hurt and the tears won't stop.. cause this voice was telling... "you gonna fail, you gonna fail...you gonna fail.. YOU GONNA FAIL!!" i stop a second.. i turn on the phone and see all this messages.. and feel guilty.. but later.. i feel like i stop crying, reading every message, all those kind words.. make stronguer! i stand up of the table and go to wash my face, eat and drink something i sit back, feeling all your love and kind words, i get to study and be ready for the test! i sorry about the long post, this got me really emotional in short time, it just.. i bottle up everything, i got horrible breakdowns were i only cry my soul out all the time, that this time feel like i got people there, on my side for this time.. warm my soul.. man i wanna cry writting all this emotion salad
but i wanna thanks MY TUMBLR FAMILY! @ameliaongaku @sparklijam @black0mangle @geraldinekawai @king-trollex-fan @roshellow29 @sullenwriter-log
thanks for being here with me! i promise to put my hearh in this blog and in what i am making! new draws, comics and even videos!! now that i am back i will WITH EVERYTHING!
soo WELCOME TO THE FARLANDS EVERYONE!
